Sometimes in your 20s or 30s you’ll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative & traumatic loop. Heal from what broke you, live in your own space. Reconnect with your discipline and learn to love yourself again. It’s very important that you see that journey through
don't call it yearning unless the wanting has you gnawing at the bars of your own restraint like some starving, half-mad thing, and the longing consumes you so mercilessly you swear you'll tear open your ribcage or perish beneath the unbearable weight of all that you cannot have.
I should kidnap you and force you to live by my side forever without any contact with the outside world and then randomly after years of isolation i set you free into the streets and have it scare you so badly you run back to me and realize you can never leave my side
do you know how utterly soul-destroying it is to see old pieces of text written by you with the full understanding that you will never be able to write that way again. you simply cannot string sentences together in the same manner. your lexicon has shrunk. your brain is fried
have you ever gone through an experience so unexpectedly transformative that you need a few days to yourself afterward just to make sense of it? anyway we're back now i guess. time to rejoin whatever madness is happening on here