ɴʏx ;

god.. im healing and getting ready to be by your side! ❤️‍🩹

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

manifesting

[ega @fluoxetan]

gimana ya cara ngejelasin kalau kita tuh emotionally unavailable and easily socially overwhelmed karena sensory issues. gak ada niat gak menghargai atau nganggep orang gak penting. i just genuinely get exhausted from having to reply to chats, answer calls, maintain conversations, or meet up regularly, even when i look active online & free. belum lagi kalau lagi hyperfocused on something.

kadang capek juga sama standar “kalau peduli pasti bales”, “kalau sayang pasti nyempetin”, “kalau gak ngabarin berarti gak penting.” and this isn’t even exclusively about romance. pertemanan juga sering kayak gitu. padahal sama orang tua sendiri aja kadang gue butuh waktu buat bales chat wkwkwk yes im the distant daughter, makanya seringnya ditelpon karena kalau chat lama balesnya.

selama ini kita berusaha masking dan mengikuti standar social availability orang lain, tapi any meaningful relationship we have still can’t magically override our limitations. punya kepedulian sama orang lain gak ujug-ujug bikin social battery gue bertambah.

bahkan sama temen-temen yang gue genuinely enjoy being around, kadang dari awal gue udah bilang, “lagi males ngomong ya” then i just sit there with them, listen to them, watch them do their thing, and genuinely enjoy their company. i want your presence, i just dont always want interaction.
sering juga lagi overwhelmed tapi maksain ketemu orang-orang, malah tiba-tiba nangis karena saat itu kepala gue masih penuh mikirin final project wkwk makanya gabisa dadakan dan harus selalu mentally prepared dulu karena kita jadi gak “hadir” diajak ngomong aja zoning out😹😹😹

and romantic interests somehow feel even more pressuring. once someone starts expecting constant replies, calls, updates, attention, or access to my time, i immediately feel overwhelmed. especially when we’re barely anything yet. you’re not even my husband, why am i already being treated like i owe you constant availability? i really dont like men who act controlling or entitled to my time and attention. you’re still practically a stranger to me. and yes, i can be interested in someone, think he’s a genuinely good guy, and still not be comfortable giving him that much access to me.

interest does not automatically equal access. the moment i feel being demanded, it stresses me out and makes me anxious. merasa bisa mencapai milestone tapi maintainingnya gak tau.
i dont think i would survive lansekap romansa era modern bruh, kayaknya harus hidup di zaman 70an, ngabarin orang pakai surat nyampenya seminggu sekali😹😹😹

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

i swallowed my pride 😔💔

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

ugh, caught myself crying in the middle of going home

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

i miss you stranger

[Sajjal @sajjalnadeem_]

In honour of #suicidepreventionmonth , give me one reason you chose to stay :)

[MJM @MikeJMele]

Being suicidal due to depression isn’t about wanting to die. It’s about believing that you need to die to rid yourself of the pain you’re experiencing.

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

@aphr0sla @cattozips haloo kakk, masih adakahh?

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

WTB The Legends Infinity : The World of Studio Ghibli x Makoto Shinkai

1 tix (prefer koriko)

tag. wts wtb trust orchestra the legends infinity

[​𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐚 @sunnkssdseraph]

choose a man who calls you after an argument just to make sure you're okay, not someone who leaves you alone with your thoughts while you cry. choose the one who wants to fix things, not win them. the one who stays, listens, and talks things through even when it's hard. someone who cares more about your feelings than his pride. because healthy love is not about never arguing. it's about knowing that even in the middle of a disagreement, you still matter to each other.

[paw @marrooenn]

"kamu resign aja sayang, aku tf per bulan 3x salary kamu"

singkat, padat, mimpi basah independent women

[lily @lilycalypse]

tw // suicide

sebagai orang yg punya suicidal thoughts tp ga punya keberanian buat attempt, kasus adik ini honestly triggered me so bad. kita ga pernah tau apa yang selama ini dia hadapi, apa yang dia pendam sendirian, sampai akhirnya dia merasa giving up was the only way out

[Ele 🌻 @elenadesaa1999]

Casi nadie habla de esto pero, es horrible darse cuenta de la cantidad de pérdida de memoria que ocasionan la depresión y la ansiedad.

[edrasyaf @nuitjacquelle]

tadi liat orang sibuk kerja terus gue mikir.. damnn, even if i disappeared tomorrow, the world would still keep going. even if i embarrass myself today, life still goes on. SOOO why am i so scared of embarrassing myself? just do it. if i fail, i learn. if i win, that’s a bonus 𑣲

[yimika. @yimikaaaa]

Nobody likes you when you're depressed.
Plain and simple. We can talk all day about mental health and how important it is, but the moment you are depressed, people start to distance themselves. They see you as negative, a burden, and someone too heavy to handle.

[ɴʏx ; @dijetc]

beliau semangat kirain seiman seamin,, ternyata makan babi 💔

[✥ @qamrlight]

you seem pretty avoidant for a girl so full of love