kikiwi (-1/7kg)

🍵 a 22yr old’s lazy ed diary 🍏
cw fat (fatter) gw 52 (19.7) ugw 49 (18.5) 🍀 -17 dni ♡

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

I feel like such a fake lol i’m not coming back until i lose it all of it again.

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

I don’t deserve to be here right now i’ve been crying all day i hate the way i look i can’t believe i let myself gain back almost 10lbs what is wrong with me

[ophelia ⋆.* @ophiessx]

having the same eating disorder & substance abuse issues i had at 13 at 23

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

I’m not losing fast enough i want to dieeeeee i can’t do this it’s torture

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Lost 0.1kg from yesterday and have been rewarded with constipation

[mars🪷🪽 @whxre4coldbrew]

How relapsing feels fr

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Bmi 18.2 ➡️ bmi 16.9 yay

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Just saw thinspo got to me so bad i’m dropping my ugw i’ll still be fat at bmi 18 i need to be smaller than that

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

No sorry

[💍 princess vidi 🎀🌈 @faintloops]

doesanyone else see stuff like this and get jealous

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

@pr4ttyskinny IM SO JELLY YOURE GORG 😭😭😭

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

@soleilastarves Take care of yourself the best you can angel

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

I only ate twice today though i kinda can’t believe it but maybe its bc i don’t have any of the snacks i usually have in my room

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Away from home and told myself i was going to leave my scales to see how i do but i could not do it #loser

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

@linookcals IS IT NOT? IT LOOKS REALLY SMALL TO ME IM SO SORRY

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

@sanzoaho Girl you’re better than me 😭

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

@sabaistic Soon 🙏🏾

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Do not fast in this fucking weather for more than 16 hours i’ve almost passed out twice since this heatwave started

[kikiwi (-1/7kg) @dimoo1850]

Longest fast i’ve done in a long time yay!