I highly recommend you find yourself a clingy (healthy) lovey dovey partner who's super excited about you. Life is too short to spend it with someone who act like showing love is a chore.
Adult friendships require grace. People are very busy. People are healing. People are growing. People are taking time for self care just like you. Less communication isn’t less love. Check in not out.
You disrespect yourself every time you rekindle a relationship with someone who has constantly disrespected you in any way, shape, or form. Forgiveness is one thing, but you need to set boundaries!