Mathdaniel Squirrel

I love rainbow sprinkles on my ice cream and Hardcore.

My views are my own, and I could care less if you disagree with them.

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

We cannot expect people to have respect for law and order until we teach respect to those we have entrusted to enforce those laws
- Hunter S. Thompson

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@paizo Man, some of these folks care WAY too much. You want alignment in YOUR game? Keep it in there. No one is saying you can't. That's the beauty of it. The game YOU run uses YOUR rules. Quit being babies about crap that doesn't have to affect your game if you don't want it to

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@vanessethismess I feel you. I'm the saaaame way

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

These days, I'm questioning if the folks I always tried to keep safe from harm or unconditionally support would do the same in return for me.

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@GavinNewsom I'm not even right-wing or conservative, but this post is over the top dramatic. Right-wing extremist is a bit much. Tim McVeigh was a right wing extremist. Maybe you should post information after you chill out for a bit instead of making wild exaggerations

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

When my mom wouldn't quit bugging me, I used to tell her that her voice was like scraping silverware across a plate. Now I'd do anything to hear her voice again

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@phan_versace I'm trying!

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

I'm terrified to deliver my mother's eulogy today. This is gonna be rough going.

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@phan_versace Thank you, Diana 😊 I hope you're doing well

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@rocketsk8sss Thank you ❤️ it was so fucking rough

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@danarel Definitely set up an appointment for grief counseling. I've also been trying to stay occupied. Went back to work, making sure I'm around people etc. The hardest part is laying in bed at night with my thoughts. That's where shit gets rough

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

Having a difficult time with my mom's passing. She was basically my only parent, so it's tough to have them disappear out of your life completely. I know this is generally a shared experience with folks, but I've never felt more lost & alone like I do now.

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@danarel It's still so fresh, so I'm still processing & learning to manage my emotions. I've been talking to my mom as I'm driving in my car. That helps, but I usually end up crying. I know it's important to feel & not bottle things up, but I also don't want to be a constant mess

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@devgamer Thanks, Steve. You know how rad my mom was. You were over our house so often, and she treated all my friends like they were her own children

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

My mom's passing has been incredibly difficult. For the first time in my life, I feel lost & don't know what to do. I've been on autopilot, alternating between emotional breakdowns & numbness. She was more than just being a mom - she was a trusted friend...

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@danarel Thank you, Dan. It's been tough as fuck. How are you & the fam?

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@volarrecords It's been an emotional roller coaster to say the very least. I just walked into her bedroom, stood there for a minute looking at things & had to step out cuz I was gonna get choked up

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

@SafeInsideRecs Love you too man ❤️

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

in my head. But how does one get over losing the most important person in their life? Who would want to get over losing such a positive influence? The man I am now is because of her, from my values to my deeds. I owe all of my accomplishments to her love & support. I ❤️ you mom

[Mathdaniel Squirrel @dirkxfunk]

I can't begin to express the sadness I feel at losing my mom. The altruistic part of me is relieved that she's no longer sick or in pain, but the selfish part needs her back immediately. Her voice saying, "Ben, you really need to get over this & move on" echoes over & over