leon 🔞

i am a normal person with normal thoughts . i am 24 . 18+ only

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

a slightly tidier kian reference sheet... enjoy :)

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

day so stressful my stomach hurts. surely a good sign.

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

i try so so so hard to be nice online, even when people are rude to me first, but sometimes it's like the universe wants me to say something rude back to them and sets up the perfect opportunity and i have to resist it so hard

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

he's a blank flank he puts stickers on there to feel less sad about it but everyone knows and mocks him. if he ever did get a cutie mark i think it would be of his own mangled corpse

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

hes a horse now idk

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

did someone report my post or did twitter just decide to be like "hey buddy... you alright?" on its own lol

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

does anyone know how to start living like you don't plan to kill yourself sometime in the next week or two? or is it just actively talking yourself down from suicide every day forever

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

I have forgotten how to draw it seems

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

new life plan: i want to move into a crappy studio apartment and hole up and do nothing but make art and then maybe die when im 28 or something

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

if you lightly critique a medical professional's work or even slightly suggest that your experience doesn't line up with their diagnosis then they decide you're no longer worth helping and leave you to worsen/die. this is what i'm learning.

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

hair update: i've found one style that im able to do with this stupid haircut that looks somewhat normal, however it does happen to be high pigtails. did the hairdresser forcefem me or do we think i can pull off pigtails in a chill, masculine way

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

by the way every time i disappear and don't draw for a long time you can safely assume i've been dragged against my will into some kind of medical bureaucratics

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

i have box of kind of gross protein bars but they weren't cheap so im forcing my way through them... eugh

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

they gave me a reverse mullet i don't know how else to describe what was done to me. some sort of hair horseshoe perhaps.

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

was feeling really sad so i decided to go and get myself a nice haircut to try and cheer myself up and they fucked my shit up so bad it sent me from feeling sad to feeling suicidal

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

Learning that it's hard to do anything when your brain has an untreated physical problem with it. Like I'm forgetting how to spell and stuff man what the hell. Undergoing dumbification due to medical negligence

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

I'm sick of life I want to turn into a beautiful flower 🌷

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

THANK YOU I am happy you like him :D
I always forget people tend to find him cute... I mostly get the urge to throw rocks and such at him lol
(Also the song was very nice!!)

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

It's my god given right to ignore medical events

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

I like this tiny Kian I doodled I think he looks sweet. If only it weren't a lasso tool nightmare

[leon 🔞 @dirodiro65]

I keep trying to draw cute sedated puppy Kian but it isn't coming out right. I'll keep trying.