catlos

if anyone would like to donate to the funeral/memorial cost for my uncle he passed away on New Years eve🤧

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Finally pulled the trigger and got myself a flower 🌺✨@steven__rea

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Should you be looking for a relationship/love if you don’t love yourself?

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Can we normalize telling kids to be grateful for real life things? I would give a fucking organ up at this point to not have back or knee pains🤣😭😭

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Some times I wish I could fake my death. Just so I could rise from the casket and tell all these fake mother fuckers to leave the ceremony 🤣🤣

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Then you got to think is it even your place to interject? Surely there’s a reason it is burning in the first place🧐🤠

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Watching a empire burn will always be more entertaining than watching it be built.. there’s beauty in destruction but how far will you let it go before you interject?

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

I think most people want an emotional death not a physical one. To be freed of all your past traumas, all of your evil thoughts, ignorant to all the evil the world has to offer. I just hope everyone can find peace within themselves an realize those experiences have made you,you🥲

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

It’s so strange to think about how much I miss being on drugs, basically overdosing multiple times a week, repenting for all the wrongs I’ve done in the midst of me thinking I’m going to die. Then to wake up and do it all again the next day. Was a glorious time of carelessness..

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Fast forward 3 years now I’m scared to be so careless because I’ve realized how fragile life actually is. A lot of people say “I wish I was dead” but the second death is possibility they plead for their lives and promise to do anything to live longer. Is a wild phenomenon

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

You ever feel like elevator music? Like you serve no real purpose to the people indulging your sounds? You’re just background noise till they reach the next stop🙃

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Most people would say just find new friends but like how fucking practical is that?

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Shit makes me upset, cause like how did you let a ex dope head surpass you for 1? 2 why are you upset your “friend” is doing well for himself? 3 why is my advice invalid now because I used to be a junkie?😡

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Shit really makes me want to start abusing drugs again, lose everything I’ve worked for JUST TO DO IT AGAIN AND STILL BE BETTER OFF THAN THESE SILVER SPOON FED FUCKING IDIOTS😭😭😭😭

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

I love when my friends doubt me because I used to be a drug addict. Mean while I’m the only one who owns a home, has a good credit score, and is working towards multiple streams of income. Instead of going to the same bars everyday but I’m the problem🥴🤧😡

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

I h8 it here😤🥲

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Stopped smoking weed everyday for about a month and some change now when I smoke I turn into a npc😭😭😭

[Subby @7Subby]

@ayeejuju that was never your girl it was just your turn

[🫠 @steven__rea]

Running this back cuz lol

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

Drinking alcohol is so funny. One minute you’re laughing about nothing.. then the next you’re trauma dumping🤣

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

It’s so funny I be the most stressed out and Caught up in my mind when it’s the middle of the night and I can’t do anything about it🤣🤡

[catlos @dirty_downstem]

I need a hug🥲