autyy 💜

30, they/them! Mental health, autism, and disability content from @autyy_t 💜♎️

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Hiya! My main account is now @autyy_t and this username will now be used for disability and mental health content! More personal things and just general content! 💜 go follow @autyy_t for my gaming and streaming content!

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Trying to find what’s real and what’s dream or nightmare.

It causes such bad dissociation, depersonalization, derealization, dysphoria. It’s scary and jarring and confusing. I can’t pick apart what’s reality and what’s in my head.

Anyways I’m just tired of it and need a break

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Lately though I’ve been having many dreams, mostly bad and weird. And it’s jarring. It’s confusing as heck because when I’m dreaming them they 100% are real to me. And then I wake up and have to spend the next day or two trying to pick apart the dreams from reality.

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

I’d like dreams to go back to being a rarity. I’m on medication that in the past has limited the amount of dreams and nightmares I have.

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Today’s affirmation is: I treat myself kindly and with compassion.

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

TW: self harm, self injury, abuse, assault

Just some lyric writing

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

I’m really not sure how to move forward. Do I try with a new psych at the place I’ve been? Or do I search to see if there’s another place like the one I go to. Because they cover my meds and the majority of the cost of my appt. what am I supposed to do?

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Here is something I wrote about dissociation a long time ago.

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

There’s something about not feeling well that always make me dissociate so so badly. Have been so spaced and feeling nonexistent all evening. 😞

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Dissociation is terrifying. I do not exist. I am in space.

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

I am struggling to decipher the line between myself and any content I am watching right now. Who am I? Am I the character in this anime? And I the person in this mc let’s play? What I am?

[aud-tism 💜 @audynro]

Or maybe, just maybe, it’s mental illness, innit?

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

TW CW self harm self injury

HAPPY ONE YEAR TO ME. I couldn’t have done this without my incredible husband and support system. I’m in shock that it’s been a year. So proud of myself.

Know that you can do this!!!!!!!!

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Also green grapes like wow

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Updated safe foods I want to eat all the time:

Chocolate pudding
Chips ahoy regular
Jack links teriyaki beef jerky
Cheddar cheese
Green grapes
Hershey’s almond toffee nuggets
Ritz

[autyy 💜 @disabilautyy]

Y’all ever eaten just plain ritz bc damn