Perhaps bitterness is your trouble!
“Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God ; lest any root of bitterness spring up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled”.
What are you looking at?
“Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne God.”
Pilate tried talking sense to the people. “What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called the Messiah?” And they all kept shouting “Crucify him!” Pilate finally gave up, gave in, and tried to wash his hands of the matter.