usually, people who have the biggest hearts & purest intentions are the ones who experienced the worst treatment from others. they know & understand the feeling of being rejected, betrayed, alone, left behind, all the painful treatment from other pple.
It's VERY common for trauma survivors to kinda hate even the IDEA of routines (at least, ones we didn't choose or aren't into). Routines can feel to us like being controlled-- & that's often uniquely triggering.
Thing is, we NEED certain routines. They're actually our ALLIES.
the way i value people makes me wish i had someone like me in my life. sometimes , i long for the same appreciation and understanding i give others. the way i care, treat, and love the people around me makes me hope i could meet someone exactly like me.