dodecaribs

diary | blk🪼₊ ⊹⋆｡°✧˚ ༘ ⋆｡♡˚🫐⋆｡° ✮⋆｡˚‧₊˚彡🎐 cw: 108 gw: 83

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn I don't understand ven, you're such an amazing talented friend :(

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

struggling to swallow

[august ⋆༄.°⋆ @augusta_wind44]

so tired of seeing numbers i've seen before

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

as of lately food has been hard to get around. all of the money I make goes to food... I feel so ashamed for that. but there's hardly food at home most days.
tbh, if I got into the habit of not eating again, it'll be less stressful to deal with

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

I've been drinking a lot to cope and I'm 122lb... I didn't even notice. fucking hell. my ed kept me from drinking from being scared... Idk, idk how to feel

[JUWON @jjuwoonn3]

🥩🐸 #froggydoom #froggydude

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn woah holy I js got picked up my guitar again 4 days ago the world is coming together again lol, you sound amazing😊🤍

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

I remember plateauing 108-109
there kinda isn't a time where when i check the mirror, in the back of my mind I think about my weight. i checked today after having not tracked calories for months and I'm 114.4lb.

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn I will ! I want to lay on this loong branch first 😁but there's these bugs that look spikey, how do you deal with bugs out there? I was curious 🤍

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn call me to climb them*

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn There's trees around my apartment i don't live in a beautiful area like you but the trees call me climb them :( Ur skilled!

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn hi ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ(･ัω･ั)

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

i freely allow myself to eat food because my relationship around food has matured. my thoughts aren't as aggressive as before, so naturally i am not starving.
i work, so being fragile can result in injury; because i am eating more i try to workout in hopes I'll gain muscle...

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

if i feel loved then why does my heart hurt...

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn these are so adorable 🥺🥺

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@Sofia1223646540 I'll never understand people in this community having to repeat themselves what body dysmorphia is and you having to explain your visual impairment, I've seen this for so many years people are really insensitive

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@YaoiSniffer

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn You've achieved so much... and he didn't see that. I'm so sorry. Keep pushing Ven 🤍

[dodecaribs @dodecaribs]

@vindthhn yeah!!!! what Alice said!!! ٩(๑`^´๑)۶🤍🤍 don't beat yourself up too much for something that happens! what matters is u keep pushing forward. you did everything you could and he didn't see you.