Lurk

he/him, 20

sw:86kg cw:65kg gw:60kg

under 15 dnf faphobes dni, i dont like proship, idk

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how im tryin to be fr

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2600 birthday calories translates to 26 calories if youve been a good boy all year right

[Lurk @dogintraining_]

@angelflesh3 there are nutrients and vitamins you eat that stay in your body no matter if you burn the calories, if you dont eat any calories you dont get any of those and will become deficient, getting protein and exercise can also help raise your maintanace a little bit by increasing muscle

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15000*

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is it really a binge or is it min maxing my eating disorder it had 170 grams of protein and i do 1500 steps and 20 pushups, maybe im just minmaxing you dont know me

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its genuienlly so fucking impossible to be employed and be in a consistent extreme deficit, i end up eating at least 1000 cals cause i just cant function

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@rottingfruits im not ready to recover fully yet but you inspired me to try to harm reduce and let myself enjoy my interests again instead of constantly stressing about burning calories, wish you luck bro

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worked a full day, did 5000 steps only ate like a quarter of a sandwich for lunch and took an overnight lax i better wake up tommorrow and fucking disapear when i turn sideways

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the main thing my eating disorder did was make me so suspicious of all skinny people i know. how are you 5'2, your main hobby is playing genshin, and youre still thin. do you just not feel hunger. are you sleep-jogging. how the fuck

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i was literally a mid transition alternative mentally ill gay boy and high school was literally fine. its elementary school that fucking sucked. noone gave a fuck in high school and i skipped half my classes and played minecraft through all of online school

[kira-ann @charrlysa]

The quotes here are a litmus test as to who is privileged in multiple ways cause you have even one marginalization and high school becomes hell

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nevermind i called my mom and told her ill have it home for her so i cant eat it

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i was doing such a good job not eating and then i got some free meat basically forced into my hand at the end of my shift and now im on the tram home uncontrolably salivating i should just throw this away so i dont binge on it but i know i wont

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i was doing such a good job not eating and then i got some free meat basically forced into my hand at the end of my shift and now im on the tram home uncontrolably salivating i should just throw this away so i dont binge on it but i know i wont

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mmm peantud buubber 💭

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to stop until im at a weight where gaining weight would be the healthy thing to do. unless i completelly switch up. idk maybe ill try working out and getting toned instead of stick thin. maybe thatll work.

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i didnt think i wanted it before but fuck i wanna be like. a little bit underweight. just enough to where people will tell me to eat something unprompted, maybe jokingly but with like a hint of genuine concern. it sucks. i didnt wanna be that person but i dont think ill be able-

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annoying myself with how disordered i am

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literally had like one potato and three thin ass pancakes today and im still like uugghhh i ate too much like bro stfu

[Lurk @dogintraining_]

@Goontismo fuck no bro ur weird af these are bodychecks not nudes i saw you asking for moots from minors fuck off

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#edtwt tw bc bodycheck
how many kilos down needed to lose that little fat pouch on my stomach im gonna kms

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@mattysnowpuff ermmmm oops

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guys does using laxatives at least twice a week count as lax abuse