yes lu guang seems incredibly doomed right now and i absolutely think he's at a point where he would welcome death with open arms BUT have you considered that cheng xiaoshi won't let that happen
if this is alluding to lu Guang sacrificing himself for the greater cause then no amount of words can explain how much i hate the trope of traumatised character getting a taste of happiness only to have it ripped from them in the end
idk why everyone so worried bc if something does happen to lu guang his husband is gonna save him like when cheng xiaoshi locks in its over for everyone else