Strelitzia

#PerfectlySplendid #Lyricism

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

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[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

RIP Illy, you made me laugh for many years @illythescottie

[Drumsy @DrumsyOfficial]

This is incredibly hard to write, but last week, Illy passed away. She brought so much warmth and kindness into my life, even when she was ill.

Thank you for showing her love over the years, you gave her so much purpose and joy. Things won't feel the same without her.

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

@hachi_08 yes

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

A long 7 years

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

[Title: endless kiss]

When I close my eyes, I dream of twins
I dream of fire, next to you laid spent
No fear in your eyes, you kiss me slow
Snow lodge we stay, and the s'mores we smoke
Take pictures, and wish
For a never ending
For a life vacay
For this endless kiss
For this grateful day, your tears run fold
Your thoughts on hold
Our peace is home, in this eternal nightlight

Your tears drip down to the perfect mess
All smile, no frown, cause you're with bestfriend
And alast his eyes, have a chance to see
All the good you bring, you have pierced his dreams
Love infected his mind
You have brought him peace
And the life you lived, has become his home
And his dreadful's plagued everything you've known
As his fear's surprised your mortality's sin
He will wish you stayed, and embraced his kin
In a one shaped stance, you have birthed his home
Hope you finally know
Need you to finally know
Need you to let past go
For us to grow old
Will you finally see
That his pride's an axe, and the love ain't cheap
He will die on this hill, if you destroy his home

Love's not a perfectionist, it's rough
Love's not a perfectionist, it's rough

When the snow dries up and the elk stamp home, will you marry your pride in the hate you hold?

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

Shades of Silence

1.) endful blink
2.) endless kiss

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

[Title: endful blink]

There's plenty of women around me, but my heart doesn't work the same as it used to
The pain I feel when I think affects heart in ways I've been used to
The pressure it strains and it stings, tears apart my essence and chains it, not useful
The way I hide when I bleed, it's not far, she's clueless from what I'm bruised to
Suffer in the silence, I blink
I'm smilin' but I'm silent, I blink
I love her but she's silent, I blink
If it drives me too far, I'll meet God! (yeah)

This is pain and it's torturous to numb!
And I just feel defected and sectioned to none!
Curse my name!
The black wedding, it sucks
And I feel so ashamed, for sticking in rut!
Won't shed a tear for me, still hoping she's my angel queen
All my anxiety's like glass, it shatters around me
The least I fear is death, but the after scares me more
Don't know I'm fighting me, cry when she asks how are we?
She thinks I'm happily, I suffer from the thought of she
Don't know what's wrong with me, think I'm but a black sheep
Love really is pain, it haunts me

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

24/24

[Title: Miss Cosmos]

A voice I've heard in the void that I cant shake

Cause everything eventually must die

You'll understand better when it's not your life

I couldn't even look you in the eyes

Was never gonna be easy, just hold your head high

As I drive and explain all the whys

The memories flood your face till you cry

A pleasantry lunch that I had as your guy

A few minutes later it's the end of our lives

I'll remember that lunch as the best of goodbyes

An honor to be your boyfriend all those nights

Not the way to go as we expected, we're afraid enough

Don't date to settle, find the perfect, cause afraid of love

Looked her dead in the eyes, told her no, now we're breaking up

Tiny obstacle in this massive universe of us

See the bigger picture, particles in vast space of love

All the trillions of life and we ended up together

Shared our stories in the great vastness of cosmo's weather

Moon shines on lakes in remembrance for sun setter

Put on display and enlarge for this letter

Don't let all the rage engulf you, you know better

No crashing to earth, flesh and meteor

You were never mistaken for a needy born

Spent a lot of your time with me and more

And when it's time to face the fact that you've never ever been here before

It's perpetual and not optimal

Indissoluble and perdurable, the endless cycle of love

You can wash your mouth and tongue but all the facts are won to none

It's intangible and impalpable, but we still feel messed up

Camouflage won't hide your scent, it smells you

Fix all self problems first, and leave behind the old you

I went deep in the woods and I found you

And once I fell in love, my future self mourned you

If I can pick a time to go back and re-live with you

I would walk the beach with my ring pop wife, I choose

Now I erase I erase

I can't erase, I cant erase, the feelings I had with you

It's all coming down, coming down

I swear it's raining out

The way my face forms the water, you'd think I was hurt, but it's from someone's daughter

My body wont hurt but the pain burns hotter

Now I go to work like a lamb to the slaughter

Three sixty five days doesnt drain, gets rotter

God lend me a life, you know, that I care, for her...

I'll give you my life, I dont care, hope you care, for her...

Now this one's for you, ex best friend...

I hope you see this too...

I hope you live a life, of care, for this world...

Cuz when I open my eyes, and stare, all I see, is you....

This album's my care and love, that I gave to you....my dear 💜

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

23/24

[Title: Purple girl]

My mind has reached its limit, I dont know what to say

Indulge in all my pleasures that I fixed for you that day

Then I throw a pity party for the feelings that got away

Asked me if exclusive and it seen another way

Cause the love was feeling sorry for a loveable pinay

And the eyes were turning blindly for a future full of change

I told myself to just wake up

I know what you feel and it's hate love

Dreams free tuition of our love, and this box in your closet that you kept of my stuff

And it's feeling nostalgic mutuality love

Overdose yourself on antalgic drugs

And you miss yourself but you're proud of you

And you miss what was but you'll love your new

Empty bed feels dismal in the cardboard house

And the stitch surrounds you to keep you found

When your eyes are black and tears are loud

In the 3am I can feel your frown

The connections messy, was surprised it kept me

Sufficed funereal grim can speak with no sounding

Pain itching, tongue clenched and bottled of feeling

Air sombre and starless sky's unappealing

Not sure if it's me or what's left of what's you

But if this is how it ends, then I'm glad you were apart of it

This 2024 was just the brink of what had started it

Every bit of what I wrote was in my head before I started it

If you read until the end then I appreciate your tolerance

Can dreamhop till the end together, wave a hello and conversate

Do all of the things we never got to, cause it's too late

An atomic level love, that's a version of steins gate

And our Heaven's up above, see you sooner than a late

Please dont be scared, there's nothing for you to think about

Cause when I fall asleep, you're the one I dream about

It's over now

So let's power down

It's over, you can go home

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

22/24

[Title: plushies and sickness]

Dolly face and eyes made of snow, snatched a frostborn

24 years long ago, birth a whitehorn

Perfect from the mouth to the toe, like the unicorn

Angel from the eyes that we know, and I could of sworn

Seen her in the skies, their pillows, gave heart a torn

Affections that are due, I still owe, but her heart mourns

The sickness that was given from the low, it spreads to bone

You let me suck the poison from your soul

You let me love how wanted now we're faces among old

And the situation's haunted, we'll get frostbite from the cold

And my family thinks routine, but it is better off they dont know

Knew this monster since fifthteen, and now I'm defected and sold

This monster in the closet says it misses you

This burden's a hot topic, it's an issue

It's taken years and years to stop it, still continues

You can take away the pain, but I still love it

Treat and mention all the shame, but it's my suffrage

No cure's the same, but your cure helped me, and I still love you

And into your arms, I tried to suicide it from your love

But I made the dear mistake by dragging us too far out

Now face the consequences, mind wont shut the fuck up

I watch you so closely, till my eyes take the blame

I sigh and I suffer, and I hate to say your name

The sludge from excess love is inflicted in my veins

As my body turns to failure, and dark depression doesn't drain

I modified my reality, but my morality stays the same

Taught myself the lessons you must learn to behave

Still learning all the patience one must have to escape

Escape from once what was and how if time is the lane

Cause sickness is a complex interaction, not an under

Don't wanna take the wrong side of the faction, or I'll plunder

Illusions of deep evil, but everything can be okay

Fuck and mute the noise of bashing cause it's weak

I'm king of empathy, and that I'm glad I can keep

Just let your body grow heavy and lay down inside your bed

And I promise I want better for you, get expectations met

Would've loved and could've killed for you, your guardian in red

Still swear you'll never meet someone who loved you better than I did

But I hope you'll be happy, and I hope you'll be okay

If you remember when I told you why I'd leave you then okay

Can be the angel in your dreams, and watch you sleep inside your bed

Can feel the angel in your breathe, I'll be the plushie on your bed

I know I wasnt always ideal, but I'm as real as it can get

You showed me all your hurt, and I took care of you at best

Is this what they call love

Cause I feel it in my chest

I feel it in my bones

I feel it in my head

I see it in these words

I hear it from this hurt

I smell it on my breath

It's dripping from these tears

It's dripping from this sweat

And it's crashing on the ground, from what I have left

From who I had left

And what I have left, is this mess that I have made

And who I had left is the best that I have made

I'll always be your crush

And I'll always speak the truth

I know you care for me, as I do to you

My language is the love, and my cries are filled with war

And if they ever speak her name, know that I have died there before

And if I can appeal for

If I can request

The recesses of your mind, is where I'll lay to rest

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

21/24

[Title: coma/feels like we're losing time]

Squeezing and holding tight, I hold onto my time

If I end up in hospital bed, I'll see that as a sign

Wasting this energy for dead end life, I can never say I'm fine

But darling I'm fine, if you're ever in my vision, you're tellin' me, "it'll be alright"

I've had plenty visions, I've thought plenty nights

Thought OD prescriptions, thought I'd see the light

Reverse to what I'm missin', joy up in my sight

Love is what I'm fishin', whole cake, not a slice

I recognize a hurt, mastered useful skill

Figured it'd be worth, paying these love bills

As I walk down the hallway of what I've been stalling

The darkness caresses me, the white is in poverty

Put me to sleep, fall in love for the wrong

Actions fall deep, can you sing me a song

Lullaby dreams but the nightmares are garbage

Even in the dark, I sworn you are gorgeous

And I fall asleep to this song that was ours

As I think about you all the way from the start

Affection and trust, it's the purpose my heart

Leave a tangle, and mangle the purple in scars

Now hold my hand while I fall deep

This sleepful time has come and creeped

Know you're not here, but you're still here

You're in my heart, my eyes, and ears

And when I fall asleep tonight, your actions will describe what's right

You'll hate me when I die, but you'll love me like forever's life

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

20/24

[Title: K.L.L.]

I know your skin marks they hurt and they're tough

You let the eyes droop the black cause they're rough

Can't run and hide, cause you'll damage your stuff

You've sacrificed all you've had, it's all enough

And you swear

Sworn on your conscious

And you swear

For the better days

For the better year

No more drastic ways

No more lasting tears

It'll be okay

So light it up

Light it up like you used to

This medicine, this medicine is for us too

You live new home, but can you live without us, boo

A severed home, a severed home without anyone

I'm missing home, what I call home isn't anyone

A memory, you'll always be my favorite memory

A revery, have reveries about us two

Cause I have lost a broken one, and she has lost a broken boy

She's a shy, she tells me to just bare with her cause she is just a broken girl

I give the love to her, I share it with her broken world

The one I fell for was so saturated beyond return

Gave all the care, my cure I called upon all my reserves

But in the midst of well, dark confiscated my preserves

Now we dont sleep at night, dark child erupts, nightmares emerge

All this integrity is burned without the you and I

All the years can pass and bye me, and I'll refuse to believe

That this terrible feeling burdens you as bad as it does to me

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

19/24

[Title: devastation]

Everywhere you go, aging your feelings till they grow old

Chilling dont you know, runs down the spine like blanket of cold

Thinking leads to null, take back why you have felt so much dull

And you shattered your crown, now you're up from your downs

You're amused from your sacrifice, sacrifice, sacrifice

Feel abused, now it's your demise, your demise, your demise

No excuse why they always fight, always fight, always fight

Now you're tired of lies, and lies, and lies

Own your own kingdom now

Hard work payed off, new Queen around

This castle's blessed, your life is sound

Captured yourself, yes you have found

No need save princess from her own tower

She's independent, has own royal guard

Now her section is free, no more loving from me

Cuz I'm never on my own

Im used to having someone for me

Trips and travelling, we're exploring

Minds are babbling, love importing

Read her text, blowing up my phone

All this drama's getting kinda boring

Tears fall, crash, her eyes are pouring

I still love you, not important

I know you wont let go, it's not the same to me

I know you're down and low, can't put the brain at ease

I know your heart is froze, can't let the pain release

You used to call me home, then I went and changed beliefs

I went and changed...

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

18/24

[Title: SUICIDE!]

*Chorus*
She said goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
While she goes down
Why she sink drown
Why does she cry, she cry, she cry
On merry go round
Her life turns up down
She tears down herself, herself, herself
She's all by herself
The city's no help
What are we fighting for...

*Verse 1*

Upset, it's all over the news
Nonfiction pains while you're lost in clues
So will you tie the knot or will you tie the noose
Burnt a heart to black and gave hell's amuse
Psychology illness spreads to fever
You can't take it back, doing death a favor
You'll make it easy, for the grim reaper
To take own life, makes nothing cheaper

*Verse 2*

Gained a lot but losses and lies!
How did you do all those things to survive!
Cries through the night as you attempt at your life!
Morphine and pills sound the best in your eyes!
Know your bestfriend will join you if you suicide...
Nothing feels better than her potions
Nothing feels better for a sick girl
Lost in her wrld cause he entered and left her

*Chorus*

She said goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
While she goes down
Why she sink drown
Why does she cry, she cry, she cry
On merry go round
Her life turns up down
She tears down herself, herself, herself
She's all by herself
The city's no help
What are we fighting for...

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

17/24

[Title: passionate pair of parents]

German conceived in the flush of addicts

From lies and deceives, love born fanatics

Red, white, blue, the dream, change demographics

To birth daughter, a free, make it automatic

At this time they will see, life's cinematic

How erratic it can be and how daring dramatic

And from one it was birth all alone, now it's two hearts

Two kids by the throne, perfect restart

Except back to lies and deceives

Now 'bout everyone throws around that, he's the love thief

And the damage family burdens, the hits and the screams

All the cries through the night are thrown out to extreme

The red and the blue visit house of the scene

The two hide in the closet from what they have seen

So they text and they call, who to share with the words

And they cry and they ball, and they show the record

It's a gun to the head, it's the tears of the hurt

From the one's who were wed, led the years of the worst

To be wishing of dead, hold the pills in the purse

To the gripping of neck, choke and kill, what comes next...

We're not the same

Know the damage in your life runs deep, but baby

We're not the same

Can still happen if you're not careful, choose wisely, but

We're not the same

Your daddy never loved you enough to be a Father

Dont worry

We're not the same

Can still break free of these chains, they wont last, they're rusty

Crippled by the past, not paralyzed, you're okay

All the pain wont last, but be remembered in the old days

I see you living better, new job and new place

Hope can be happy for each other and forgive all the mistakes

Never have a down moment we pray, we can love faith

It's not a sunday, but it's okay to hope for a future to have maybe some day

For the better days, we can hope

And devote

We can offer some in exchange for greater

Take it slow

Life is slow

And to fall in love again is sluggish

Hope to see you again with a full tray

Lord have mercy on a pinay

Blessed you can just be, there's no rusting

House of full to stay, it's all lovely

Kids to brink of tray, you'll make something

A beauty mother you may, you'll be trusting

Sons and daughters will play, you'll be loving

Know it's strung from the title and all, to be apparent

The passion of love won't fall, to be a parent

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

16/24

[Title: my 002]

Took a short moment to be your man

Took a long time to learn about chance

Reflecting in the mind, to find out where I stand

Oppressive but she's fine, till she took a glance

And as she rolls her eyes back, she learns about greed

A fickle in the mind, it's too bad it ain't free

The description of sin born, is the red when conceived

Depictions leave her torn, as she sighs about me

And I can love a long time, but I can't see the truth

And I can live a long life, but I'm blinded by muse

There's haze in my reticle, I'm so tired of you

It's been too long, and I still think about it

Rehearse the wrongs, and how they are sounding

The capture in the kiss, when the hearts were pounding

See a darling in the eyeball, the brain goes numbing

My zero two, my eyes fall, they crash, need a plumbing

In this moment, you are beautiful, so tired of regret

And that's so irrefutable, loved since day that we met

The smile on your face, made it's way to a ten

Her stature and her waist, had its ways with my hands

We sit couch, watch movies, while ordering Japan

These favorable times, I wish that I could live again

But as of now, that last line comes to an end

Now out of our world, we are terrified to make amends

But some how we must make it out alive and fine

Some how we'll survive in our lives tonight

And when happy again, we'll feast in our delights

Cause this burden is a bummer, but the pain is our friend

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

15/24

[Title: broken house]

That broken house was not much of a home, than what we've imagined with us two

In my defense, it kinda makes sense that we're better than them, they aren't special

End our degree, what we once had, without me, you'll be outstanding

Be purple, play offense at hand, don't let me be your ending

Free soul to be, I hope I can restart again in her memory

Take ahold of me, pry open mind, pour bleach inside of my memory

Lie awake at night, and waste wasteful nights, to be a hero of all, I envy

These sleepless nights, and these weary lines, they choke me, what I'm fearing

Death on the mind, on all our minds, when we pass away, they're cheering

Bodies, hit the floor, take a headshot

Target, Rudolph nose, like a red dot

Poems, can never capture what I think about

Too complex to even talk about the brain rot

It's hazy at the top, but it's amazing, ah

Don't listen him, has my conscious in a caging, rah

I feel soaked in my blood, I'm an animal

Injured my head and suddenly they hear me now

Ask me if I'm dead, I'm just tired of being physical

Lay my soul to rest, let me escape to the spiritual

Twenty pounds my eyes, dont ask me how alive, a miracle

Pulsing red my eyes, the fire in 'em is hysterical

Historically accurate about what's in my past

If you think that you're in love with me, I'll tell you it won't last

Empty void is godless, everywhere and all at once

I've been lost but I've been found, and it's the loudness from her sounds

Cherry voice, the cutest noise, delight to me, Best Friend the noun

Take her out the broken house, I must have failed, but she's the home

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

14/24

[Title: 14 children]

Made a bunch of promises that I could not keep

And now I'm stuck inside your head, don't let the pain blur and bleep

Fever fogging up with dread from head to toe, I ain't sleep

I would rather be a dead, cause all my kids dont exist no more

Episodes run common cold, I'm sick, love

You're not around and the factory resets my code, love

Passengers in the challenger, burnt to crisp, love

But if I am still alive in a few more years, I'm gonna challenge for love

So expect the unexpected, I might never leave my home

[Strelitzia @dollyrobber]

13/24

[Title: last kiss we shared]

Like a drug on oxy rush

Make the hearts inside us hum

Can understand once was

Can't understand now because

Used to spend my years for love

Choose to blend my tears too much

Expensive love is tough

Now you can kiss the memories goodbye

The life you've lived, has become his home

The love you gave, he has made his own

Left in past seasons of your life episodes

Dont remember the last one as cold

Remember it as what it's suppose to be

A memory of loved care, to show and tell of everything

The few of years we gave each other, exactly how it's suppose to be

Gentle and it's delicate, relationships can break to free

And damages are sane now, call back, you cant get over me

Selfish pain with a fray mouth, our discoveries run openly

We left both our hearts out, now damaged from a stormy cloud

Now free both our hearts now, these savage monsters are too loud

Was not a kiss, but a soul bound broken from a saddened mouth

Release the lips and our leverage fell from frown to foul

No 14 kids, how the pain has hidden in our howls

Focusing on a fading flame that flowed for miles

Send some love, shared for life, but we're still just kids

Flown her home, then at night, crying in bed

Decorate deaths doorbell cause my memories keep devil fed

What's a remedy to my heart if I bleed out for death's appointment

Tell me u luv me, you're my favorite ointment

Give me higher dosages, life can be annoyin'

This message in the bottle is for you, and it's hard to find

Deep in the dark big blue, gonna be a grind

Symbols in these text, all for you, read my head aloud

I feel the weight in my eyes

I can't be with you tonight

The pain will put me to sleep

The curses fog up the mind

To miss your skin touching mine

The way your chest laid on me

Once craved the warmth of your eyes

Like fire in woods, cabin tree

I feel your lips match to mine

The last kiss we shared, defeat

The pain resides in our highs

The smiles fade from our teeth

In time I've grown less to eat

My 17 was in your eyes

And your 17 was inside me