'*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg)

୨⎯ #edtwt ⎯୧ // MDI // 6’2 // 21💜// struggling uni student bouncing between restriction and bingeing😖

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

But thank god I’m alone at home otherwise this would be even worse;/ oh and this started last night cause I could not sleep for the LIFE OF ME😭

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Bebes I am back tho just to tell you all I have been getting rid of my binging and been getting my 10k steps in everyday🥳 But I just hit the worst stomachache EVER and am dying so I need to vent somewhere so here I come

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Also MY TEETH ARE HURTING I think my wisdom teeth is pushing on the other ones and it hurts, back to my stomach ache I took my iron pills last night is this revenge from that like my bad 😖 also poop is deadass liquid so not good

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

WHY ALL THE BODY CHECKS I TOOK AT LW ARE IN A SWEATERS I NEED TO SEE MEE IN A TIGHT SHIRT WHAT WAS THE POINT IF I CANT SEE HOW GOOD I USED TO LOOK😭

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

My brother has always been the skinny one and I just found out how much he weighs and it more THAN MY LW your telling me I was the skinniest last fall😀 I NEED TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT NOW literally only a few kilos to be at the same weight (I’m actually a bit taller than him)

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Me rn FR HELP

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Looking at photos of u at ur lw and realising u kinda had Ana face like shit was not far away😭 like other people saw me like that wtf but also PLEASE COME BACK BABY I NEED YOU

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Today’s goal is to eat less cause ate a lot yesterday and me regret and is in pain

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Imagine the scenario where you’ve just binged and your mom is like no honey no you need to eat here sit down we are not moving before you eat, like yes she thinks she is helping but doesn’t understand how bad my binging has gotten again and just thinks I’m anorexic😭

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Will be living with my mom for the summer cause this is where my summer job is, but I am already losing it😭 my mom keeps mentioning food and how I need to eat more, I’VE GAINED 20 POUNDS what do you mean EAT MORE I ate fucking plenty

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Whole plan is to lose back to my lw because I already feel so bad about the weight gain that I need to lose it to stay sane, and she keeps making it so much worse by making me eat more

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Again, saw a phot of myself from before I gained and my god I need to get back to that like everything looked perfect, my legs, my face, my arms and outfits😭

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

And then cause I wanna kms I go into a binge cycle cause who cares imma kms no matter what, and then don’t, so the losing begins again

[⋆.˚✮ Ella ✮˚.⋆ @Ellafattyx]

Losing weight is fun untill you gain a little and than i lowkey want to kill myself

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Omg just saw someone me height ( happen to be a woman who’s 6’2 so does not happen often) and she was so much skinnier than me omg help😭 I wanna kms she looked so good

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Exactly five years ago today I went to the doctor and they weighed me and for the first time I realised I had lost weight, exactly 10kg and that is how my binge to ana started and literally a month later I passed out so badly (looks like I was seizing) that my mom force fed me😭

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

About to kms

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

Cried for an hour about how adult men ruined my perception of myself when I was a child because of their disgusting comments that then made me resent everything about myself that they liked, I wish I was there to keep her safe, she deserves so much better🥺

[M. @103hrz]

yuh

['*•.¸♡ Em♡¸.•*' (-2.5/-10kg) @dontknowdarling]

I was so mad yesterday that I had insane cravings for food especially for meat… guess who woke up with their period today, I wonder why my anemic ass was craving meat😭 sometimes I think I should be better at reading my bodies pleadings for help