Christian built this lovely community and a safe place for many of us to feel belonged. I think many of us have now found lifelong friends because of what he's done and who he is. This is part of the legacy he's built and no one can ever take that away. We are Dreamers, forever.
a few times over the years ian has said he wouldn't be able to do this forever. if that time is close, i'll say the work and everything he's given is enough to withstand time. anything he decides to do (or not do) will have nothing but my support. i will always love you @DPRIAN_
i feel so broken right now. i always try to stay strong,clear headed,grounded but im an empath at the core of my soul and i can’t shut off what i feel and maybe,deep down,i don’t even want to. cause feeling,even when it hurts,is a form of honesty toward yourself and toward others.
i won’t say everything will be okay. i don’t know that and it would be dishonest to pretend otherwise.
i ust sat there,listening, feeling something tighten inside my chest cause i’ve always seen ian as a human being before anything else,before the artist,before the work. i’ve always seen the person behind every extraordinary thing he’s created,the vulnerability,the care,the soul he poured into it. and maybe that’s exactly why this hurts so much. it’s not the pain of a fan it’s the pain of recognizing something genuine in another human being and watching them struggle.
i feel powerless and i know it’s not up to me,there’s nothing concrete i can do. but with everything i have,i hope ian finds his peace. in whatever way,through whatever path. that he can find himself again or build a version of himself he can finally be at rest with. i admire him with every single particle of my existence. i genuinely mean that. he has shaped who i am in ways i can’t fully put into words,without him,i wouldn’t be the person standing here today. and that’s not something i say lightly.
i am so proud of him. not just of what he creates,but of who he is. of the courage it takes to show up,to pour yourself into something,to let people see you,really see you. that takes a kind of strength most people will never fully understand.
and we see it. hundreds of us do. we are here and we are not going anywhere no matter what. through the uncertainty,through the silence,through whatever comes next.
we are still here.
we want to see you shine ian,the way you’ve always made us shine without even realizing it. the way you light something up in people just by being authentically,unapologetically yourself,that gift is real,YOU are real. and you matter so deeply to so many of us.
we don’t need anything from you except for you to be okay. we want you to exist as whoever you want to be,freely,fully,without having to shrink yourself or carry more than you can hold.
you’ve given us so much. now please, give yourself permission to rest,to heal,to figure it out at your own pace.
we love you. we’re proud of you. stay strong.
you’ll find a way,there’s always a way,i trust you. @DPRIAN_ take care❤️🩹
it enrages me so much that there's people who had this baby hamster in their life and decided to be MEAN to him. they could have given him food and offered to carry him everywhere and they DIDN'T!?!? i won't ever understand it