im excited about class tomorrow
im scared too
im excited about getting into bootcamp
im scared ill fall behind on youtube productivity
i know ill have fun competing and learning the set
im scared i won't perform well /again/
everything feels uncertain
ill keep going
I hate that feeling as a fan when u hop into a stream & feel like things are getting too boring & repetitiveπ« like I wanna support u but if I'm genuinely not being entertained anymore it sucks sm... worst offenders are who interact with chat less, only stick to same 3 topics etc
i get kinda worried about upsetting other creators when i talk about this sort of thing but its seriously not at all an indictment on anyone ive just felt really awful when ive done these events so i dont do them
i know subtember is coming up but i seriously dont feel comfortable doing whole sub events unless im like having an emergency or theres something i desperately need the money for
i understand why people do them and every circumstance is different, i dont hold it against them
i have a throne if people are feeling generous, and my tip box is open for the same reason. people can subscribe if they want to support me! but i:
- do not have any pressing bills at the moment
- not in any financial danger
i just wanna operate "business" as usual >_<