Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗

tw ed | 16+ only pls | blk | dm for content | avid pompompurin lover 🍮 | 18+ priv @cookieekrisp

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

anyone buying content (puke or vom specifically) bc i’m selling for good price :3

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

where is the safest place to get reta/glp1? i need it rn lowk but ofc i can’t get a script

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

if i can make it 3 days without bp, ill believe i can survive long enough to make something of myself. so far i haven’t proven that

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

another day of agony. i should start saving my meds to od or something i’m so tired

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

@lexercise_ i’m chopped

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i don’t even want to go to work tmr. i’m massive and i should just sh and stay home. i need to make $$ to pay bills ofc but fuck i just feel so much shame when i see myself. i need to make a plan to just off myself atp bc im getting nowhere

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

getting back on my meds finally, praying it helps me quit bping bc it’s ruining my life

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i just wanna blow up

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

@ghostivyleaves he reminded me of ur pfp!!

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

got to pet work kitty this morning :3 (he doesn’t let most people pet him)

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i just feel like i’m letting everyone down. everyone says they’re proud but they don’t know how poorly i’m truly doing. they would hate me if they knew i relapsed

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

if i’m not good at anything let alone starving why am i even alive? clearly i can’t do anything right

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i want to sh so bad… if i died it wouldn’t matter to me but ik it would to others to some degree but im just so exhausted…

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

like i always wanna ask “how?” when ppl lose extreme amounts but ik that’s insensitive and rude. i just am so desperate im so sick of myself and having to live in this stupid body every day, i’d rather just end it all atp than continue to live in this prison

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i suck at this stupid ed everyone else is losing but me yet i’m suffering so much every damn day. i want to give up my life, it’s just miserable. if im not 38-40 kg by the end of this year, im just gonna kms

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i just want to die

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

i should just kms i swear 🫩 like i just want peace is that hard?

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

@my_sweet_space i feel ur pain 🫂

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

@KaTn0pi UGH ILY

[Mao "૮₍ •⤙•˶ ∗ @drtycheerios]

last nights bp was a nightmare. 7 purges but hey i was down .85 kg from my morning weight. skipped this mornings weigh in tho for sanity n will check on friday. gonna try to restrict until thursday night then allow myself to finish my bp food from yesterday