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20yo | cw: 90.2lbs | gw: 70lbs | ugw: 64lbs | pro-recov | pics from pinterest unless i say otherwise

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▪︎ daily omad accountability thread ▪︎

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@Seally_Seal_ WORTH IT :D

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Todays omad😃😃😃😃
900cal
Tbh as long as i eat under 1000cal and once a day idcidcidc

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@LMKZ11374 Thank you, whomever u are

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I ALR KNOW IM WAKING UP 10LBS HEAVIER. WHY DID I MAKE THIS DECISION? I SHOUDLA FASTED TIL TOMORROW NIGHT. KILL MEEEE. I ATE MY BIG ASS BOWL OF SPAGHETTI AND 2 STRUDELS OMAD IN 6 MINUTES. I DIDNT EVEN CHEW. WHY AM I FAT LIKE. WHY CSNT I RESTRICT ANYMORE WTF IS GOING ON

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Mayne i should stop walking sm, maybe 10k steps a day with an intake of 800cal, i feel like i need to stop the cardio a bit. Idfk im constantly hungry getting 20k-25k steps a day

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Simply not leaving my house until i have to go to rehab on monday morning, i should be less bloated and have gotten a couple pounds down by then🥲🥲🥲

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@LMKZ11374 I walk 25k steps a day too lazy tbh like ik eating wouldnt be as much as a problem if i did more strength training than cardio/walking but idk

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Wannabe anorexia wannabe anorexic FUCK MY LIFE DAWG. FUCK MY LIFE. I rlly hope the next 4 days/nights go as planned. Im so ugly.

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Im just taking this weight gain as if im new to this eating disorder and back in my honeymoon phase LMAOAOAOA

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Wondering why im maintaining but also saying "fuck omad" , eating during the day and going back to midnight omads every few days. IM DONE. Omad until sunday night/midnight monday, go to rehsb, restrict as fuck there, get back home and hop back on midnight omads :-)

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KILL ME i mean we're so back BUT KILL ME

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@SadakoinyourTV YESSS

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Guess ill resort back to my tragix old eating habbits :( (1 of microwaveable mac n cheese cups at noon and a pack of mr noodles at 5pm) CUS THATS THE ONLY FCKN THING THAT WORKED FOR ME LIKE

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Me when i step on the scale and im not suddenly morbidly obese:

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@butanetoskin @needyy4u Right omfg

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Ik exactly how im gonna lose weight now. Not counting calories just gonna omad what my mom makes for dinner and if it something i dont like then its gonna be something ive been craving

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@MartorellM19164 TYY

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Crazyyy, im relapsing on b/p in a few min, i relapsed on alc, ij so sorry to all my soher friends on here i let ya down :/ still going to rehab.. idfk.

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@MartorellM19164 Right omg

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You can see how much weight ive gained just by my face.

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Cus all i wanted my whole life was to be loved. U cant be loved when ur mom gives birth to u @ freshly 18 AND she was a satanist. Funny. Idk why i ever even THOUGHT about recovery from an-b/p or from drugs n alc Ive been love seeking my whole life to thepoint it activated mania🤣

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My mom now knows i purge, she doesnt care. She said laughed and said "at least youre not drinking" n talked bout how she was like "oh no is she not going to rehab?" Plot twist, i hsve been drinking n go to rehab next week, and she also asked what my therapist said bout the b/p

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I rold her my therapist said its ok as long as i stay sober cus its true. My therapist quite literally said "if doing weird shit w ur food keeps u sober from crack and alcohol then go for it. Im not staying sober. Fuck them. No one has ever cared im so mentallly ill (replies)