Sometimes I look at my life and realize Iโm not even living it anymore. Iโm just waiting for the days to pass and hoping one of them finally feels worth waking up for.
i think the reason most eating disorder treatment fails is because itโs treated as a mental illness in the category of anxiety/depression when in reality itโs in the category of addiction
I had a crazy meltdown the day after I was fired, how soon should I start looking for another job?
Mind you, I was looking for the majority of my time there and nothing. I've got an Interview on the 13th that looks good but nothing else. And job searching makes me feel insane.
tw rape, child abuse
Sometimes I thing, "oh, the bullying at school can't have been THAT bad," and then I remember my classmates raped a kid with a vuvuzela, at like, 11. The kid left the school. Nobody talked about it so the kids got off without punishment. Silence is hell.
Of course this is the school that allowed a janitor to molest kids as young as 5 YEARS OLD. I was the oldest; it lasted until I was 12. I never said anything. It went on for years. In silence, always fucking silence
@diaryoflydia_mh Someone carved "Cow and chicken" with little drawings of my best friend (who was shorter) and me as the cartoons. I laughed. I was a men's friend. I was cool (monologue). It was traumatizing, and my life wasn't even on the line. I'm so sorry.