letting go is love . letting go of myself is also love.
anyws came in here in along time jt to realise how much of a fucked one I am . hate me love me for all I care . I honestly don’t give a thing about anyone, only taking care of my parents & making them proud.goodnight folks
I only saw pain frm my pov & nvr from everyone elses until a few months, whereby ive been realising tons of how toxic I am as well.questioned myself, destroyed myself & now I'm changing myself,still wht abt their pain tho?wht did they do to deserve the pain I gave?hit me hard tdy
I speak this sober on “my yappin since day one app”. I truly hate myself for whatever I made myself become and made others become.definitely hurts,definite mistakes,definite pain. infinity pain. A sorry will nvr be enough.
so I remove myself from being a obstruction.
so much words kept in me for long but I actually do not give a shit about you or you or u.judge me however you want . yes I am a fucked person,call me a manipulator,call me a disgrace sure.that will not destroy the fact that I want to get better for myself and only for me .
I need nallarupo on like a FULL ON BLAST SPEAKER in my room in the middle of the night w cold breeze, alone w jager & cigg , blasting my emotions, i think that will definitely heal me in ways i cannot describe 🫠