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cw:36,0kg gw:40kg ugw:38kg⋆⭒˚｡⋆

[Maryam 𖣂 @txtdom]

THE BIG 3

[하지 @txtarchivee]

WHATEVER IS HAPPENING RN �

[gelatin @fluffyeonbin]

THEY SAID IT AGAIN 😭😭😭

[nova @comfypill]

"you're so quiet" thanks! i actually tried to speak twice but you kept talking over me

[‎오물조물 @txt_sarangdan2]

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[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

Hey so if im always severely constipated and lax keeps taking longer to kick in does this mean im experiencing organ failure and my bowels are failing?

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

what do you guys hate most about being disordered? i hate cancelling hangouts with friends because i know there is going to be food involved :(

[hourly beomgyu🌼 @beomgyuhourly]

the difference between beomgyu and the members is taking me😭

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

I cant do this anymore but i feel like im not sick enough until someone forces me to get help and recover if i choose to ask for help myself i feel like im not bad enough

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

I ruined everything also i feel like im not sick enough unless i go see a doctor and get a diagnosis but im to scared to be forced into recovery i wanna do it on my own i cant do this anymore

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

I not only lost weight but I completely lost myself id do anything to go back to my life before i became disordered my body wasnt even that bad i didnt have to live in fear constantly im afraid if i recover i wont get my old body back my fat distribution was good and my weight to

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

But last night he already pretty much confessed im so scared he’ll ask me to be his girlfriend before i decide cuz i dont wanna ruin the friendship neither do i wanna give a shitty “i dont know” answer😓 and saying yes when im not even sure feels so mean thats unfair

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

Also one of my bestfriends has a crush on me i dont really know what to do?😭 we mostly talk online though i do know him irl but we dont hangout irl often we plan to see eachother more but still idk if i like him in that way i want to see him irl more before i start anything

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

Someone i havent seen in like a year or longer is in a the same class and friendgroup as people i know and apparently he said im pretty thin ive lost 12kg since he last saw me people think im skinny we cheered

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

@D0nt_cry_b Thank you so much🫂❤️‍🩹

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

My mom is stupid when it comes to how weight works and calories and nutrition so i can easily fake recovery

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

Changed my mind abt recovery how do i fake 10kg

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

Like is she praying on my downfall or what??😭 i feel so invalid i hope my mom will forget abt it or leave me alone in a while after i gain a tiny bit and fake weight and eat some things she wants me to eat

[kiwi @dweakkiwi]

I feel so guilty but my mom saw my weight theres no going back im prob gonna fake recovery though but im so scared i hate myself im so stupid and one of my tt moots since i said ill try to recover keeps texting me “im starving” “im shaking i barely ate today”