This is a sign that you have a crush on goth wasian egirls! Better yet, you love them in their 30s. Even better, you favor them to be brave and resilient as well (cancer and transplant survivor btw)
Which one?
Option 1: you keep the goth wasian (but I'm 32 years old and a cancer and transplant survivor)
Option 2: you go back with your ex
Be honest.