I want to leave her because I dont deserve her. I dont deserve the kindness she shows me. No, who am I kidding? I'm just fucking selfish. I want to just let loose and be a fucking disgusting slut. She doesnt deserve someone like me. Shes so kind-hearted and pure.
I just.. I just complain and get angry too much. Why. Why do I fucking do that. Can I not just be someone's useless, insignificant live-in parasite? Just.. just let me fucking be that. Just let me... just let me be useless. All I have left is breathing. I have nothing.
I dont deserve to eat or sleep. I'm an awful person. I am just evil and shouldnt be around anyone. I always have ulterior motives for everyone by being nice its never been about being nice for me. I'm a disgusting manipulative psychopath.
This account is no longer for depression. There might be some rants here and there, but only out of frustration, not sadness. My life has meaning now, and I would like to fulfill that meaning :).