the pigeon doesn’t understand your disdain for it; it coos for you anyway. the tree does not know you own an axe for it; its leaves sway in the sun anyway. the starving cat eats the poison you put out. it doesn’t know how not to trust. the earth forgives you, in spite of yourself
+ that time and feel everything i was feeling that time. it's so sad to think that i can now only see the narra flowers that once comforted me in my most vulnerable times through my memories.
i miss you everyday, my yellow road.
crashing out at the fact that a year ago, i was writing my thesis and the only thing that comforted me was the narra flowers falling right outside my dorm. since then, i moved out of qc and started working in another city. even if i come back to upd now, i can never go back to +
18 Narra trees can be found in our street alone here in Mandaluyong. This time every year I look forward to their flowers blanketing our street yellow. Today I just saw another big one behind our studio office (still in the same baranggay!)
an assurance that there is something beyond the hundred or so pages of this book... the author lets go of their control over these characters and leaves it upon the readers to think of what happens next, to think of how they will live their lives after having their "happy ending"
in case anyone is interested — i took a fandoms studies / fan culture class and i am putting the syllabus and the required watches/readings in this thread (no links;; just titles)