Ediciu$

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I think about you too much. My bad for wanting you to be ok.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I hope you are okay. I be missing you a lot but my presence and words make u worse.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I wish my brain wasn't wired for self sacrifice now. I want stuff.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

What words could I even say. You can hate me forever if it means you will be happier and safe.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I wont fade away quietly I won't disappear into the crowd. I deserve better I deserve affection.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I don't deserve sympathy. You are right it would be best to forget. But I can't simply move on.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I can't simply forget you won't fade. Like the rage in my heart you are here to stay.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I am not safe anywhere. She added onto the pile I warned her about. I feel incapable of intimacy or trust

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I wish I could be what you need. I have starved myself and now I don't trust myself with food.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I miss you with every fiber in me but you are over me and lost interest probably a long time ago.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I love you I just wish you could talk to me. I wish you'd show something other than disinterest.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

Yeah I miss and love you but I have no fucking reasons to do anything with that. I tried.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

Ignore any and all attempts I make to repair or have any sense of normal. God forbid I try to be vulnerable with you. God forbid I try to show you my actual feelings despite everything

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

Just lie and manipulate the right? Never show anyone you care just lie manipulate gaslight.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

Anything but texting me back or showing any affection

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

And to think i ever wondered why my trust issues are so horrid

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

There's nothing left to say i guess that's why my letter and text mean nothing.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

I really reminisce on the ways you expressed your desire for me to fuck off.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

What is it about you that thinks I don't love u. I got quite a few reasons to believe you don't love me tho.

[Ediciu$ @edicius_prod]

My mind never stops yet nothing ever changes. I have such strong feelings but feel shot down in my attempts to express it.