i am so nervous for my birthday party i can assure you i will be sleep deprived drinking coffee (which gives me major anxiety) and also throwing up my food. i will be a hot mess but itβs fine because itβs better than awkwardly sitting
ok wait iβm ok now i just realized i have to clean the house really good because itβs embarrassingly messy since i have siblings and a messy hoarder grandma but CALORIE BURNING? OMG?
I JUST DID THE MATH AND IF IM CONSISTENT ILL GET TO UGW IN A MONTH AND A HALF AND IM NOT EVEN WORKING OUT A TON SO IF I WORK OUT MORE IT WILL BE QUICKER?!? OMG!?
before my birthday should i take a hot water bath the night before or a cold water bath? or maybe a hot water bath the night before, and then a cold shower in the morning and then fast for however long i can before someone tells me to eat+birthday cake
i wanna do it so bad but i fear making it out alive. being alive after an attempt scares the fuck out of me because of the way my parents are about everything