how can I not take uppers I want to be happy too. I deserve to be happy too. I don‘t have any energy left in my body and I feel so down. I just want to be happy and
it all fades away eventually. I can’t live forever. I can’t stay forever. I feel like I’m killing myself with every day I wake up. I’m so tired and all I do is push things away. I can’t control it anymore and I don’t know whats gonna happen to me. I want to have hope.
I don‘t mean any harm. I‘m just trying my best to help and I‘m sorry that I suck at it. I really just want to help. I really just want to be happy. I hate damaging everything I touch everything I try ends up being a mess