I want to make a whole new life for myself. Forget everything in my past, and just be a whole new person. Is that even possible? To leave you're entire identity behind? Permanently? I want to be a better person, but it's impossible with the way I am now. I want to forget
When someone gives me the slightest bit of kindness, I seem to become obsessed. I don't like it. My every thought turns to them somehow, and when they don't speak with me for a while, I get so sad. I might tell my psychiatrist when I get the chance to see her, idk though, scared
Sometimes I think about how big and like. incomprehensible the world really is and then I just seem to disappear from reality. I start to feel like I'm drifting upwards and I just walk without control of my body, I do it on purpose sometimes, I really enjoy the feeling
I've been playing to much Royale High, I saw someone's lolita coord and my first thought was the sugardough set because I want it so bad and it kinda looked like it! I want it in real life to, when I get the chance, I'll buy something similar enough, at least a similar neckline