By the end of this month, Iโll finally be submitting my manuscript to an editor.
One step closer.
One step closer to finally publishing the book Iโve carried in my head and heart for years.
And lately, I realized something deeper about why this means so much to me.
Just a thought before going to bed because Iโm honestly excited.
Anywayโฆ shameless promotion of my upcoming fantasy novel: Of Banes and Blades โ๏ธ๐๐ค
Because growing up, I was usually the quieter voice in the room. So siguro this journey became something more personal than I expected.
And now that Iโm this close, I honestly just feel grateful.
And maybe Iโm realizing that I was never really after fame. Maybe the real fulfillment comes from seeing something that once only existed in your imagination become real enough to move, inspire, or stay with other people too.
Maybe aside from the dream of publishing a book, I also realized how beautiful it feels to share a story and have people genuinely connect with it. Kahit hindi marami. Kahit simpleng conversations lang about the world and characters you created.
A few weeks ago, I had a dream. I was sitting beside a bonfire with a few people (I couldn't remember their faces), talking about my book. They were asking questions, reacting, genuinely interested in the story and the world I created.
Pagkagising ko, parang may narealize ako.
Two birthdays, two dragon-themed cakes, and endless support for my dream novel. ๐๐ Your belief in my vision and constant encouragement keeps me motivated to bring this imaginary world to life. Thank you for being my biggest cheerleader and reminding me to keep writing!
Maybe next time, I'll just keep my pain to myself because expressing it only seems to deepen my suffering. I'd rather endure it in silence than risk angering someone that only keeps me going. ๐ค
When people I love the most reject me and choose not to be associated with me, it cuts deeply. The hurt feels profound, leaves me grappling with intense emotional pain. ๐ฅ
Friday, I followed up sa former colleague sa pagkuha ng company nila sa akin. Then he said I'm ridiculous daw sa rate na sinabi ko. Sabi ko yun yung value ng experience ko, and yun yung hourly rate ng ibang client ko. Sakit sabihan ng ridiculous, parang hindi ako worth sa value.
Happy 15th birthday Mappy and happy 13th birthday Lilo! ๐๐พ Thank you for adopting me as an additional furparent ๐ . Hereโs to celebrating you both and the many cuddles and adventures ahead! โค๏ธ๐We labs you!
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