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25 ⚢ any pronouns
♡ magical girls, dnd, mh & crpgs
♡ @primulaone

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

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#PSO2NGS #PSO2NGS_SS
#メンテの日じゃないけどssを貼る

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I don't know. It's something I didn't think I'd mourn over much since I wasn't a major hat person in the past, but it really sucks.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I wish I could wear hats.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

But I digress.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I just want to be able to sleep normally. I haven't had a proper nights rest in almost 2 years. I'm so tired.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

The medical bills have gotten impossible for me to catch up with, and I've refused some treatments because of the expenses. But I don't even know if I can keep doing this. Maybe to just push myself further into debt in hopes that things get easier.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I'm just tired.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I'm dancing around the idea of chopping off all of my hair to help manage symptoms and pain. I already changed my diet and other regimens, so why not that? My skin's breaking out so bad from the physical stress that I truly don't know what more I can do to make things easier.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

My muscle spasms have returned, and thankfully I take less days off from work now. They've allowed me to do a hybrid WFH schedule due to all of my appointments but I worry about where they will draw the line of how much I can push due to my health. I don't want to lose my job.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

It's a constant cycle of new treatments, new medications and ideas. And I feel like nothing sticks. I'm just tired. I hope the PT makes changes long term and helps, but I feel like sometimes I'm left with other unrelated issues instead.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I've been doing some Physical Therapy for about a month now and I thought it was helping decently well, but I just don't know anymore with the bouts of episodes recently. I just don't know anymore honestly.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I'm approaching the 2 year mark of when my health really tanked, and while I am seeing some improvements, it's not really getting much notably better. I feel like I take 2 steps forward and 1 step back every few months. And sometimes it's 2 or 3 steps back instead.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

In case anyone was wondering: Hi, I'm not dead. I'm still around. To be honest, with my declining health and Twitter going to shit, I just haven't really bothered to hop on much to look at anything recently.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

@primulaone The other stuff I want to grab, I'd rather have sooner so I'd rather wait it out.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

Maybe I will treat myself around my birthday. It's like $20 so it's not bad.

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

I wish I had more coherent thoughts reading this book than "please destroy me"

[江戸屋犬八 / edoya inu8 @neko_cer]

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[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

@primulaone Way to call me out 😔🫰

[ae ❀ @eienfriend]

Spotty vision today damn