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光る棒振ってた人 趣味やら勉強の独り言

[Gabe Gaines @thegabegaines]

4:30 am full of doubt - I put my running shoes on and ran sprints until the taste of blood filled my mouth.

I was nearly 30 years old living with my parents.

A DELUSIONAL dream to join Special Forces.

My wife, newborn son, and I had just moved in with my parents to save money while I trained for a Special Forces contract.

It was cold and dark. I crept through the house like a burglar, trying not to awaken my sleeping family.

I sat down on a bench near the front door.

My mind was in a negative feedback loop.

What was I doing in my parents house at 4:30 in the morning attempting to train for Special Forces?

I was terrible at running.

I had a wife and newborn son to support.

Leaving my corporate salary seemed like madness.

I was killing myself training and hadn't even spoken to an Army Recruiter yet.

I questioned if I was:
Smart enough.
Fit enough.
Tough enough.

I would never know the answer unless I went all in...

I put my running shoes on and ran sprints until the taste of blood filled my mouth.

I finished the workout and retreated inside. Sitting there, physically spent.

Maybe I was losing my mind.

That feels like a lifetime ago...

I've been in Special Forces for a decade now.

I started my journey with doubts and felt inadequate.

But every morning I would put on my running shoes and confront my fears with hard work.

You have more power and agency than you know.

If you want it. Go get it.

Doubts be damned.

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@hakun0401 社会人キツすぎ！！

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生きてますよ

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社会人疲れます

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@yk_s5m ありがとう！！

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国試ちゃんと受かってました！
4月から医療人頑張ります！

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ヲタ芸からだいぶ離れてしまったけど、動画はしっかり見てます

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@yk_s5m ありがとう！！

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大学無事に卒業できました🎓

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国試自己採点で無事受かってました！

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国試頑張ってきます

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@atyatya0728 ありがとう！

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卒業試験受かった！

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身体が重い

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@reiwa_onmyouji ⛩️

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ラジハ見てたけど来年から強制でIVRに配属されると考えたら恐ろしすぎる働きたく無い。

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何が食い過ぎたから抑えるやねん。
食ってしまったわ

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最近夜中ラーメン、夜シロノワールと暴食すぎたから抑える

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@yk_s5m わかってらっしゃる

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しんどすぎ