You CANNOT go back in time and change the decisions you took. Forgive yourself, move on, be your best version. You're alive and until death all defeat is psychological.
Rebuild.
Being financially stable is enough for me. I don’t have to be the richest. I just want to always be able to eat what I want, go where I want, pay my bills on time, and give my family a great life.
Working 8–9 hours a day and then going home to about 3-4 hours to yourself, which includes getting ready for the next day, is not living, to be very honest.