A healing stage is DISGUST. Yes, DISGUST. You will be DISGUSTED by the people whose love you seeked. You will feel embarrassed about the choices you made and the people who had access to you who didn't deserve it. Feel this feeling then let it go.
That will NEVER be you again.
Everybody looks good also because there’s one major factor: when you’re welcoming Black people to an event, you need to know how to light Black skin properly. The lighting, the brown backdrop, everything was designed to complement black skin.