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introvert // immatured thoughts only

[☾ @ellyssarah]

ini jam kau kata cinta sudah tiada nilainya

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mereka yang buta hati tak akan dapat membaca saat jiwa berbicara

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completely alone through this journey

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i agreed to put my life at risk for the sake of making your dream come true.

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the exhaustion; it eats the soul each day. no changes. chances given; taken for granted. death; wishing you could approach me within this moment. stop it all; i could take it no more.

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wounds have been held for years, never get better. just me; silences it all, holding up a bit more hoping it could heal, finding ways to fix; eventually give it up.

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tak boleh ke tumpang happy bahagia aku sekejap

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aku memang tak kaya, tapi salah ke aku beli kehendak hati sekali sekala? kenapa setiap pembelian aku kena judge

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i did my best in every situation; to please my circle & give the best as they needed. help out in any way possible, available anytime. what do i get in return?

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i wish people would care a little about me, just a little; that i do matter to them, appreciate my presence

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why don't they care or show some positive reactions or support me??

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i know that nobody ever got interested in me nor my life, it's just me; i always find a way to impress others- honestly, it's totally mentally exhausting.

Why don't they have the same energy as me?

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need to be motivated

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stuck for years

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what a pathetic life im living in

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i can walk myself home when it's time

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i don't have to explain myself every time. just leave it

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maybe restarting life is the best choice for now

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been having trouble sleeping at night recently, bad headache, everything went blank

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loving is hurting each other sometimes