sometimes even an apology can’t fix what happened because the real issue isn’t the mistake, it’s the part of your character that allowed you to do it in the first place. and you can’t apologize for character.
David said in Psalm 119, “God, keep me from lying to myself.” That’s one of the most powerful prayers we could ever pray. “God, help me to be honest with myself. Help me to look in the mirror and see where my soul is not healthy.”