lazy

i'm zette. 25. self-care is not my thing.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

wouldn't it be weird to treat someone the way we treat ourselves? to starve someone, cut their skin, force them to purge? yikes.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@FastingforLife for sure. some days are a fucking war still & the issues aside from eating keep me up at night but it is easier to hang when my body is healthier.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

weightlifting has made me a lot bigger than when I starved myself but with the way i dress you'd think I have all the confidence in the world 🤦‍♀️

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@FastingforLife aw thank you lovely! 🖤 still a mindfuck being over 20lbs heavier but most days are pretty good.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

is there some trick to yanking a close friend back to the friend zone after they admit crushing on you? 🙄😞

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@lucyditeaa thanks for being so understanding 😘

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

my coach & I got close over the past year & then he pulled away. this past week while he was out of the country to compete & he told me it was because he liked me & didn't want to cross a line. 😳 um what?

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

i hope you're all well, or as well as you can be 💙

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

you should follow @halseanderson on Instagram. sweet soul but not so sweet that she won't provide opposition over silence. what a gem. #OnTheListOfPeopleIdHug

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

told my friend i screwed up but that i'm back on track. she sent me a video about counting your blessings when it could be worse. "lost your legs but ya have clean water!" sort of thing. 🙃🙄 that's how you get me to stop opening up to you.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@Twt4bones 💜💜💜 wish there was something useful I could say.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

torn between hanging onto my hobby or getting rid of the big ol' legs. crossfit is not a skinny sport.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

so...why is there a term that covers everything wrong with my head? let's go back to miscellaneous crazy. no self-diagnosis, no problem. kthxbye.

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

ever Google something that just ruins your day? borderline personality disorder. gonna pretend i didn't read all that 🙈

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

trying to get my head on straight but I miss this little community so much..

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@lucyditeaa @halseanderson love you back!

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

took the weekend off to hang out with my sister since we were busy on my birthday. time to do whatever tf we want ���🐋🍻

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

"i'm too big. " i tell myself.
"too big for what?" i retort.
"for..for life. too much weight/fat/space." i reply.
"i don't know what i weigh. but i take up just enough space to be noticed, &to be missed."
i'm winning. #iamthawing @halseanderson

[lazy @emptylittlemiss]

@Twt4bones that's sweet. i vaguely remember chatting about this a previous year on my birthday.