I just saw a video of someone saying “going to my big girl job with my little girl sorrow” and that shook me to the core, one direction is the a part of attachment we have to our younger selves and probably why this feels so personal
my mom said to me “try and think about something else” and that’s when it dawned on me why this is so hard. as insane as it is, one direction has been on my mind in some capacity on a constant basis for YEARS and now this is all i will be able to think about when i think of them
It feels so strange grieving over someone I didn’t know personally but I spent such a significant portion of my life loving these boys that it feels like there’s a void now
I don’t think I really recognized how much of that teenage girl living inside of me still held on to one direction as a safety and a comfort until now .
seeing my non-1D mutuals just carrying on their regular stan lives on my timeline instead of having a complicated grief-filled reflection on their entire adolescence and the effect that 5 dudes had on their life and how it shaped them into who they are today
during a time where i was so lonely and insecure and unsure about myself one direction was my source of light and happiness and maybe that sounds corny but i will forever be grateful for that beautiful time because you just can’t recreate magic like that
For all of its faults, 2010-2015 was such a magical, golden moment in time. And for those of us who were apart of it, feel solace in the fact we will always have that and it will always be apart of our lives growing up
My friends and family texting me about Liam just goes to show how much of an impact these boys had on our lives. Thinking about all of you, Liam’s family, friends, and most importantly his son.