Aphrodite

what is life if not hell on earth

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

@JatIkhwan I think what her boss is trying to say is because dia banyak MC and etc so her performance tak truly shows sebab yela kalau semua kerja org lain buat mcmana kita nak tau dia sebenarnya okay ke tak. And yes bonus tak wajib cus its just a way company values your work/contribution

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

We’re running out of men that actually know what responsibility is. Men can no longer be independent. Men are moving backwards. The phrase should change to Gentleman in distress. But gentleman is not quite right cus men nowadays are expecting women to be the breadwinners.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Saying I love you everyday means nothing if the action is not there. Bad never said it at least I know he never did. But you said the word every day but it doesn’t mean anything. And you wonder why I never said it back. Cus I don’t that’s true.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Haha he found out I tweeted bout it but instead of talking bout it with me and make me feel better, he just went to bed. Like I suspected. He just doesn’t care…… bout me.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Is this truly what I want? Cus im still contemplating.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Its happening again. I honestly tired of reminding him over and over again. I know people said communication is the key but whats the point of communicating but you’re not listening? Dah macam mengemis pulak. He knew. He aware but he just. Don’t. Care.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Im not unhappy but im not happy either. Im just emotionless

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Sometimes i wonder why are we even in this relationship? Am i only his placeholder? Why did i even let myself stuck in this?

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

@sfrzww Entah lah. My ex yang hantar 😅

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Never in my wildest imagination that “kena santau” would be something I cross in my 2025 checklist. 🤓

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

To be honest, I know im doing a great job but I taknak position naik, I just nak gaji naik 🙂‍↔️

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

@sfrzww People assume that she can just forgive and forget that easily . Mind you that si qurqy was their staff and mmg mengacau and menyondol. Kalau i pon meroyan.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

I can see that it slowly eating my feelings away. I barely talk to him now. I rather spend my time alone with my phone. I lost interest. I care less.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Unhappy. Resentful. I feel trapped and forced. He thinks that it didn’t matter as long as he loved me but tbh that small matter is what eating those feelings away. Dah cakap byk kali but he took it lightly. I hate that he thinks its not important just because he loved me.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

I kept hoping he would change, that maybe this night it would be different but sama ja. Kept telling myself, maybe he’s just tired. I was so frustrated to the point that I hated myself. Maybe I wasn’t pretty enough. Maybe cus im fat now.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

As a tea lover, spending RM15 on chagee everyday boleh rabak pocket. So there’s always alternative to it.

Winter warmer, peach tea it tastes exactly like the white peach oolong tea.

Tapi cuma kena brew yourself lah.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Ohh to be skinny again and not having to doubt whether or not I can fit into it. 🥲

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Night like this made me wonder whether he loved me or actually just enjoyed having me around because to be honest I can’t feel it.

[Aphrodite @ernabila_]

Entering this year debt-free. Credit card is like a death trap that slowly ruining my life especially my credit score. Niat nak beli rumah with low interest end up termakan diri sendiri. Glad it’s already end.