escape

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I did it

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I want to scratch at my arms

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I wish I didn’t start hurting myself again

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I wish I could just be truthful

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Yet I always end up doing this shit

I’m the eldest, I’m meant to look after everyone who is younger than me, that’s what you do as a leader….

Why am I weighing myself down with this responsibility

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I know people look up to me I dont want them to be worried about me

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I like being the happy one, the one seen with no problems at all

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I’ll I just hurt myself again…….

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I want to scratch at my arms

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If anyone ever finds this account I’ll be so scared

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I hate pretending so much….. why am I like this

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What is with me and shutting out people so they don’t find out anything about me

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Why am I so scared to ask for help

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It’s me, it always has to be me

Always the odd one out, always

Wrong time zone

Wrong everything

I
Give
Up

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I seriously friggen hate myself, I’m done

I’m going so crazy over something so FRIGGEN MINOR

I don’t even know what to call myself

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What if I say I wanna hurt myself?

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Friggen hate myself

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Can I just turn invisible again

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I just don't even know anymore

I've wasted my life

and now I have to pick

do I just stop dancing all together?

Cause I need a job and a career but dance isn't going to make me enough money to do that

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It's all finally clicking that I've chosen the wrong career path, it's either I completely give up on dance or I find a new career or a new degree to do

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I've wasted 4 years no 6 or 7 years in my entire life just so I can realise the career I picked is pointless