hopeless escapist

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[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

now i feel truly hopeless... and really need a break.

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

happy... birthday... to... me?

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@Riot_Kassadin oh definitely 2, my sweet twinks~

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@Porqtoaq it makes my heart warm

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

can i show up on my stream like... as a... fox? like... literally... my natural form... since i don't have my new human body yet? will u still love me? i promise u can pet me!

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

i'll lie if i say im not going crazy without streaming. sometimes i watch my old popular clips and cry. i'd really like to finish my reincarnation and go back as soon as possible

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@Porqtoaq 😭💜

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

how do i keep going if my desire to die is stronger than my will to work

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

i feel dizzy...

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

and u can't survive without working so there's no escape... i feel so tired everyday even if i don't do much... im rotting... i can't describe everything whats going on in my head. but i just feel weak and pathetic. and a burden for everyone.

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

will u guys still love me if u realize im fckin mentally sick

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

oh fuck i hate myself again when will those ridiculous mood swings end

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@BlyatCheater its not just twitter, its instagram, youtube, everything... i miss this time when we could just watch and enjoy everything without checking if its true or not..

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

whenever i scroll through my feed, im really so tired of always checking and being a fuckin detective being like "hmm is it ai?", "hmm is it real?", "hmm did they actually do that or its ai?" PLEASE STOP THIS I'LL GO CRAZY AND DIE OF PARANOIA ISTG

[HikariiFloofie 🦄 @HikariiFloofiee]

My internal fear is that if people get close to me they might just find that im just kinda a freak and they get weirded out

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@BlyatCheater exactly 😭

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

now im sitting in my bubble thinking it's all good and then i open twitter seeing how actually many absolutely stupid creatures there are. am i surprised? no. do i get back to reality and get disappointed? yes.

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@HikariiFloofiee yaaaayyyy good job i love uuuu 💜

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

@HikariiFloofiee for your cuteness? maybe

[hopeless escapist @escapistVT]

recently i've been forgiving different people for many things... am i being used regularly for my kindness or those are just coincidences? (•́ ᴖ •̀)