𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng)

🐈‍⬛ Born on April 1st... no wonder my life's a mess 🐾 18 |•_•| ✨ Apples, flowers & the scent of cinnamon.. ☕ |^-^| 🍬 I draw whenever life lets me 🃏

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Progress..
(so small because I'm exhausted all the time, unfortunately)
#mandy

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Wip
#mandy

(I'm so tired of revising for my exams, so I finally took a break)

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

I just feel overwhelmed
+I got a nosebleed today, at least at home but now I'm even more stressed because it means it's possible to happen during an exam

But it's okay, I can handle it,, I guess

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Wip
#mandy

(I'm so tired of revising for my exams, so I finally took a break)

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@ruiicide Ja!! Brawo, gratuluję! 🔥

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

I loveee spring, the scent of flowers, sunny and warm days after so long cold

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

First time drawing on a tablet, in the beginning I hated doing it, but after a while I started thinking that maybe it's not that bad, it was quite fun overall :3
I tried, okay..
Mandy, the queen👑

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Mandy 👑🍬 {she's hot and she knows it}
Chester 🃏 {he customized his clothes and hair and is proud of it}

my first ever colored drawings 🫠

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Quick sketch ig
It's the only thing I was capable of today, because the thoughts were draining me
I am my own enemy
I'm even uglier irl than this lol

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Practising shading 🐟

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@alesonnxd HII, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

I really hate how it turned out, but my teacher gave me zero instruction how to draw it so I improvised..
The longer I look at it, the more wrong things I see, the perspective is soo bad, but I draw buildings once a year, so let's say I don't need to learn that now

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@alesonnxd Unfortunately I had to give it to my teacher today, but I will draw more soon :))

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@drewmc46 Yes, the second and third pictures are my drawing and the first one is what I was supposed to draw
Thank you so much :>

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@misi1414995 Omgg, thank you so so much
You just inspired me to keep practising
And yeah, you're right, I usually think negatively about my works, but your words mean a lot to me

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@drewmc46 But at least I've recently started exercising (under my parents' pressure..), so maybe that will help me a little. I literally feel like I've tried everything with all my might, and nothing works. Sometimes I think recovery is impossible for me, but maybe someday I'll succeed.

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

How can I regain hope?
I'm slowly giving up again..

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@drewmc46 I wouldn't say anything new has happened, but lately I've been feeling guilty about everything, and school feels like torture
And after all these years of treatment, nothing has improved, so I don't know if I'll ever recover
oh and my loneliness has been showing its signs lately

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

@drewmc46 Yeah, lately I'm trying to meet some new people but it's really hard for me, especially after one relationship that ended not that long time ago
I find it a bit hard talking about my problems but if I feel a need, Ill know I can write to you, thank you

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

I can't trust anybody but him
I hate myself for it
Why???

[𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐚 (pl/eng) @eskimosqa_]

Dlaczego niektórzy nie rozumieją słowa 'nie'???