melancholy

for my guilty pleasures that can never see the light of day --but without them, I wouldn't have any reason to continue this chore called life.

[melancholy @espasyooo]

The thing is… I’ve never fangirled in my life…
(I could never understand fan behavior before and I swore to myself to never go crazy over some celebrities, especially spending so much time and money on them)

Fast forward to now…I’m hyping content, trying to increase the numbers for Pond Naravit and Prada 🤣 (and manifesting a fashion show with both PondPhuwin together 🙏)

oh good lord what has #PondPhuwin done to me?

I just came to know them late last year through a fan edit, and I was like—“oh god who are these handsome men and why are they looking at each other with so much love???”

and just like that my fujoshi core—that I buried 69 feet underground as I drown in real life adulting responsibilities—was reactivated 💡

#PPW legit brought me back to Thai BL 😭
(the last I knew were ForceBook🦊🍅 and 2gether Series)

back then I was just a casual enjoyer

months later and here I am… 😌

fangirling like it’s a job, clocking in day in and day out 🫠

In the span of a few months, I’ve…

…backtracked and watched all of PPW BL series and even solo series

…watched and rewatched Me and Thee (and Thai reaction channels) so many times that I lost count (it still remains my serotonin boost when I’m so unmotivated to work; I play it while working bc I wfh 😏, and it pumps up my blood, makes me all giddy and giggly, and gets me through the day)

…reactivated my Twitter (which was dead since 2021)

…even bought premium Twitter so I can tweet my long ass fangirl feelings for PPW (even though nobody sees and nobody cares, if only for the purpose of having an outlet when my PPW feelings overflow)

…made IG
…made TikTok
(i don’t even have my own personal socials, but I made socials specifically to fangirl, to follow and support PPW, and get my daily dose of fan-edits and au)

…heck I even made an AO3 account
(as a fujoshi, I limited myself to yaoi and danmei, but never really dabbled in au and fanfics. to me, it’s on a different scale of going down the rabbithole 😭)

…now I’ve probably read around 15% out of the 2,555 AO3 Pond Naravit Lertratkosum/Phuwin Tangsakyuen-filtered fanfics 🫣

…I’ve probably read almost all existing soc med au, even Portuguese/Spanish/Indonesian (that I even took screenshots of, slide per slide, and translated in Google Translate 🥲)

…I got to know almost all of GMMTV artists and even mascots, and follow them on all socials just to be up to date in the GMM universe (deep enough that I know almost all the GMM lore-specific or related to PPW)

…came to love #Permpoon like he’s my own grandchild 🤏 (since I suppose I’m a mommy fan? I’m in my mid-20s btw 🤣)

…started watching / backtracking almost all of GMM BLs to support GMM family, and now also a supporter of #GeminiFourth #WilliamEst #PerthSanta #JoongDunk
(trying to hold myself back, as I can’t afford to be as crazy over them as I am for PPW / PPP)

…bought Rendezvous FanCon ticket which was more expensive than my apartment’s monthly rent 🥲
(First time in my life to actually spend money on celebrities; I’m now eating my previous words and belief system)

…bought (and planning to buy) whatever they’re endorsing when I can
(and I used to judge people over endorsement-driven consumerism 🥲)

🐻🐼🎧to even—as a middle class who earns x3 than the average wage in my country, but also a breadwinner whose family solely depends on—I’m still planning and working on making my income x3 so I can fangirl without guilt. 90% of my purpose is to fulfill my fangirl dreams, lose myself against capitalism and spoil these babies

Can someone offer an explanation? How and why do we become fangirls? What is the scientific explanation for this behavior?

PPW really be that ship who can make you do things—a lot of firsts and exemptions~

I swear PondPhuwin are drugs. I’m so addicted 🥴

PPP Family~ 🐻🐼💙🎧

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#phuwintang
#ppnaravit

[GD KEEP RIGHT @GdVip_Bangs]

เมิ๊งงงงง ล่ะท่าเดียวกะพ่อมันเลย กูจะบ้าาาา นี่คือท่าตั้งรับของพ่อลูกเวลาที่ต้องเผชิญหน้ากะหัวหน้าครอบครัว 😂🤣

#MeAndTheeSeriesEP6

#PERMPOON

[nokiee ♡ @baiinokiee]

พี่เพิ่มบอกว่าใส่แว่นแล้วมองตัวเองเหมือน “ท่านปอนด์ตอนเด็กเลย” เหมือนจิงๆๆนะเนี่ย ลูกท่านปอนด์ 1000% เยยยยย

SHOPEE LIVE PERMPOON POLCASAN

#ShopeeLivexPermpoonPolcasan
#PERMPOON

[phuwintang @phuwintang]

Surprise 😮

[KenPPW🐻🐼 @naranest08]

Permpoon said “Antidotes” but wasn’t sure of the accent, asked phor phor to repeat it… then copied it perfectly, 100% same tone & pronunciation 🥺

#AntidotesNewScentxPhuwin
#phuwintang #permpoon

[bi @ppw0102]

ทฤษฎีที่ว่าถ้าจะเช็คว่าใครชอบเรา เค้าจะหันมามองเราตอนที่ขำน่าจะเป็นเรื่องจริง คุณปอนด์มีอะไรจะบอกสังคมมั้ย

[Az91saifar :) @Farah_91Babyz]

PONDPHUWIN FINISH LINE

#LOLFanFest2026D3
#ปอนด์ภูวินทร์

Pond: The next show, I like it so much. I went back and only watched this show. I'm smiling alone cause I was so happy. I like it so much
Phu: U like the show or like person who performing with u?
Pond: I like... oi!!
Phu: Well, little bit
Pond: Let me see, its ur ear red? Not red

[Chanan. @ChananMeen]

ชอบหน้าภูวินอ่ะ ~
คนละฟิลกะท่านปอนด์เลย 😆

#SalzSystemaxPPPFamily
#ปอนด์ภูวินทร์ #PondPhuwin

[Alex Bui - Narawin อเล็กซ์ 🌻 @alextb0220]

MC: Pw what's your 10 years plan?
P: access my bank account

// Scream 🙉😹

PONDPHUWIN FANDAY IN LA
#PPWEXLA

[ซินดี้ chocokorn @chocokorn]

ทุกคนคะกรี้ดออกมา 😭😭

WE CHEER PONDPHUWIN

#GMMTVStarlympics2024
#ppnaravit #phuwintang
#ปอนด์ภูวินทร์

[อโลนนิว @aloneww]

ช่วยกันปั่นเทรน
มันจะดีนะ 🙊🙊

PondPhuwin WeAre EP3
#WeAreSeriesEP3

[Az91saifar :) @Farah_91Babyz]

PondPhuwin 5 Years of Love

#HalfADecadeofPondPhuwin

// Are u okay to be shipped with Pond?

Phuwin: For me is depend on person. Bc he is sm1 that I'm okay with. P Pond is sm1 that I clicked with and person that I okay with. So it is okay. I feel like..... can say that I used to him. I feel okay, I feel comfortable bc is him not other person
MC: After this I think u should just get married if u going to be like this
Phuwin: Can't, I'm not 18yrs old yet
Pond: U gonna be 18 soon !!!

[PondPhuwin Official Thailand (DoubleP) @doublepjourney_]

Best supporter 🥹
สลับกันซัพพอร์ตแบบดีมาก ๆ ตั้งแต่ที่พี่รู้จัก
แต่เขาจับได้อ่า หลุดขำดังไปหน่อย

📸 IGs : yingyayapanikom

#มหกรรมนิยายนานาชาติ2025xPP
#ปอนด์ภูวินทร์ #PondPhuwin
#ppnaravit #phuwintang
@ppnaravit @phuwintang

[ppxphu @mumuxppw]

มุมนี้เหมือนลูกพีชในนิยายมากเลยอะ 🥺

PONDPHUWIN HEARTRACE START

#LOLFanFest2026D1

[🐻 𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭_𝐏𝐏𝐖 ♡˖*°_And_More °*˖♡ 🐼 @kiss_cos]

เคะดิวะ
#phuwintang

[sunshinephuwin @ran1239000]

오랫만이야~ 푸위니의 사이드아이!!
왜케 반가운지😊 푸위니 매력뽀인트중 하나~
사이드아이가 이리 사랑스러운 아이 처음🤭😍
#pondphuwin #phuwintang

[melancholy @espasyooo]

@SeviraS3 Remembering this angle as well 😌

[melancholy @espasyooo]

PLS, some posts are missing… Can you please repost? 🙏🥹

[june★🍓🍊 🎫 NAYAJUNE-VERSARY @lwtguitars]

to be continued.....⭐

[.✦ ݁˖ @ppwpng]

i love it when a man yearns

[haz :3 @av1tangsa]

the yearning look GRAAAHHH

[Pita𝜗ৎ @phuwinniess]

The visuals are visualing 💯

#PondPhuwinConcert #phuwintang