selalu jadi harapku biar rasaku ke kamu segera luruh dan aku kira waktu dapat diandalkan jadi penyembuh. setahun berlalu, aku masih di tempat yang sama, za.
mungkin gue ga bisa ngungkapin sayang gue secara konkrit, tapi gue selalu berandai-andai apakah lu sadar all the things i did, all the things i considered for you
aku seorang pesakitan, za. aku sadar kalo luka adalah sebuah keniscayaan dan bersamamu lagi hanya akan mengulang kecewa. tapi aku kangen dan aku mau kamu. lagi. lagi. dan lagi.
i didn’t even ask for forever. i just hoped that at least, for a very brief moment of time, i was something that you held dearly in your heart — and that you thought of me tenderly.
that, for me, is enough.
I wish those of you who don't speak Persian just could have a sense of how wonderful his spoken language is - this is a wonderful actor from the shah's period, a legend of Iranian cinema. I only know his films from the 70s, so this is like hearing a voice crackling on an old recording.
Translation:
"My dear countrymen, I speak to you from the heart of history. The blood of the innocents is still warm on our soil—a regime has shown its bloodthirsty face to the killing the nation's children. In recent days, it reaches a high point. Today, after more than half my life has passed in strange climes, I hope finally to breathe my last on the soil of our country. My heart is with you; I am by your side; together, we hope for freedom."
close to a year after it began. my heart still beats for you.
in a room full of people you’re the one my eyes land on.
there’s a quite corner in my heart where a wish of a future ‘us’ still resides, one to which God is my only confidant.
and when it’s time for love to moor its anchor in my heart again; i hope it’s love that sees me for who i am in my entirety - i hope it meets me where i am - and i hope it’s love that is safe for me to harbour it in
ada berapa banyak rahasia di dunia? kayanya rahasia adalah bahan bakar agar dunia bisa berjalan seperti biasanya. mungkin perasaan gue ke lu juga akan selamanya terpendam karena gue belum sanggup ngubah dunia, za, meskipun sebenernya lu tolol juga kalo sampe gatau gue suka lu.
mungkin gue ga bisa ngungkapin sayang gue secara konkrit, tapi gue selalu berandai-andai apakah lu sadar all the things i did, all the things i considered for you
jadi manusia dan punya hati yang berharap tuh rasanya aneh banget, za. semua yang hati gue rasain, hasrat tubuh gue, semuanya ga masuk akal — antitesis dari rasionalitas. lagi-lagi semua ini harus gue tanggung sendirian dengan berani.
mungkin bakal jauh lebih mudah untuk ngelupain semua yang pernah terjadi di antara kita, buat merelakan harapan bahwa by some chance gue punya tempat di hati lu, andai kata kita ga kerja di tempat yang sama. my heart dropped to my stomach whenever i see you, za.