i honestly love the feeling of having a busy, productive life yk those days when i’m barely on my phone because i’m so caught up with work or just life in general. when i’m not mindlessly scrolling or being lazy, it feels so refreshing
but srsly selcaday was one of my fav fan activities 🥺
- complimenting one another
- hyping each other up
- witnessing really cool & creative concepts
- expressing creativity
- sharing appreciation & love towards your bias
ugh, i'd spend so much time going thru the # 🥹
I haven’t thought about Paul Higgins in such a long time and today, his name just randomly popped out in my mind. I remember how he acted more like a father to them while on tour during those years than just their security.
Thinking of him, as he somewhat also lost a son.
none of my irls will ever understand what im going through they never know me
they never knew how much i hurted myself and found those boys as friend and reason to stay alive
life is empty now and i dont know where to begin with
im deep in my one direction bag like why did i wake up thinking about the night "little things" dropped and how we were all on the timeline live tweeting it at 3AM while tuned in to a livestream of british radio
i can’t stop being on here. like i need to stop looking and consuming everything but i just can’t. im like so compelled to scroll constantly and it feels unbearably alone to stop
He spent 14 years trying to keep this fandom together and happy, supported his bandmates and then passed away alone, unintentionally & unaware of what he was doing. Yes I am f heartbroken, devastated, could throw up from pain but also refuse to accept that he's gone. F u universe