Kangen sama orang yang udah meninggal tuh another level kind of pain. Dada lo kayak ditonjokin dari dalam, berulang kali, tapi lo nggak bisa ngelawan sama sekali. Nyesek aja. Udah.
At this point, Im slowly accepting that spouse might not be written in my story. Somehow He still surrounded me with family, friends and colleagues who love me just as deeply and show up in quiet ways. I pray that the years ahead shape me into wiser, kinder and stronger.