🩵 Alyssa 🩵

just a sad soul, tryna live my best life

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

I just spent the last 4 and a half hours straight listening to all my fav old nostalgia music and even though I'm gonna regret not sleeping while my baby did, my soul is just so happy ☺️

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

@PlayApex if I link my PlayStation and my Xbox together to the same EA account, can I play on both back and forth and they both keep progressing or does it just keep going on one?

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

I didn't know anything could make me this happy 🥹 bless you guys for this

[Apex Legends @PlayApex]

Okay, we hear you. You really enjoyed Three Strikes! Due to your overwhelming and enthusiastic feedback, we're bringing it back starting tomorrow for a limited time.

See you then, legends 🙌

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

A year ago today I went to get my birth control removed to start trying for a baby. It's crazy to believe she's here now.

[memes that i saved on my 256gb phone @256GBsMemes]

Chrisean Jr when he finally meets Blueface 😭

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

I'm honestly really depressed about it. I've never been hurt like this and to have it on top of literally the fact that I could go into labor at any minute, it just feels like too much.

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

Not even two hours before fracturing my foot in two spots was I talking about how my pregnancy had actually been going fairly easy and I felt lucky. This really feels like a punishment.

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

I can't even keep friends around. What if my kid doesn't even like me?

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

Being pregnant genuinely makes me feel so alone.

[anne @anniebee900]

thank you angus cloud for giving us fez and for giving us the most satisfying scene in euphoria.

rip

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

Anyone else tired of being broke all the time or is that just me 🙃

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

@Briizissues I love my baby, but it’s just hard to love myself when I feel like this 😔

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

Body dysmorphia while pregnant really is something different. You want to love your body so much because you’re growing a baby but the rapid changes really get to you.

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

@Briizissues Yeah same I had lost so much weight not long before I got pregnant and started to gain a bit back right before getting pregnant and I was already having issues with that. Gaining this much weight while pregnant cause me honestly a bit depressed.

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

I just want my phone back 🥲

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

my man and i got some donuts and i guess baby liked them cause she was kicking up a storm and colton was able to see her kicks from the outside for the first time 🥰

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

it sucks not having a phone while apple is taking their sweet time repairing it

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

It’s hard to get ahead of life.

[🩵 Alyssa 🩵 @existentialaly]

Tired of being broke and hungry 🙃🙃