Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad

Stumbling and fumbling.
I smile a lot for someone that lives in a pit.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

A History of Sadness; Our Savior Seaman
(dual panel screenshot, 2019)

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

My shit is finally calming down, and I'm not sure how to log out of this app.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Is it just because I opened up, and it was received with kindness and curiosity? Was that even kindness and curiosity?

Well, I feel strongly in a way that makes me feel young and confused; thinking makes it worst.
I touched a leg as a sign? It was consciously? I wanted to?

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

But we sure are pretty before we open our mouths...

I don't really have fellow commiseraters hanging around my levels these days; it's just not jiving.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Checked out a smooth-moving, buff dude across the street and thought-

I should practice mentally objectifying people again, so I can try to produce more positive feelings about humans, again.

Shit's been hard, and I've never actually had a very high opinion of us.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

-less than a second of seeing a sticker ad-

"I'm going to buy stickers!
I'm not going to buy stickers.
I might buy stickers."

I might buy stickers.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Here we go again, second surgery coming at us, six days. Heart isn't steady.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Get that fucking things out of my sister.

Drinking, and drinking more. Don't do this very often, but am tonight. First time since the news, almost a month ago.

I feel like I forgot, and then remembered, too suddenly.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

It's totally not specific, apparently that's just the Longhorn way....

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

-I'm jealous, I think I just fell in love, and I'm sooo angry at myself right now-

Don't really wanna directly call out what prompted me to say that, but it involves a sweet potato with like, half a jar of cinnamon sugar in it. That's pretty specific, hope it's a far reference.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Oh, it's still Thursday? Why was Tuesday 5 weeks ago?

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Haven't been feeling well, but today I'm fortunate to have the brain fog 🫨🥹😮‍💨

But it's still the cheesiest brain I know, and it won't stop looping Elvis Costello singing, "what's so funny 'bout peace, love, and understanding?"

What a pipe dream...

Bill Murray just joined in.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

I forgot about this, and am glad it's here

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

I guess it just comes down to wanting to be observed and appreciated; I've always had the most difficult time engaging, though I'm decent at it. I want to be understood over how uncomfortable I make myself.
I should probably find a way to live with it, but it grows, always.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

The Man Who Loved Beer- David Byrne, now playing, and now wanting to take note of.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

@jijiglobe Oh yeah, in-person totally seems achievable, got in one day of training room with Cory and a buddy over the weekend, I'm just not a very good fighting game dancer 🤷🏻
World Tour is absurd and I love it

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

my tweeter comprises of the saddest thoughts (surprisingly, not my personal saddest), and a light following of the FGC here in SE Michigan. That said, I started up on Street Fighter 6, and can't stop playing world tour mode. I'm afraid to play with others.
I'm just an afraid guy

[Katsuhiro Harada @Harada_TEKKEN]

Heihachi has numerous illegitimate children.
I doubt if he remembers Reina very accurately.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

heart never had a chance.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Autistic neighbor, playing all your favorite 1950s hits!!!

.... it's me, I'm the neighbor.

[Andrea Joy Boy- Sad Lad @explodingjoy]

Golden memory.