☆ezra☆

21
digital yap space

[☆ezra☆ @ezraxhell]

intro edrtwt
------>let's moot up

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Ezra (21)
relapsing
167cm
lw: 45kg🥀
likes: goth club, concerts, my buff boyfriend, cooking, wine, nature
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"what are you so afraid of loosing when nothing in this world belongs to you"

(my own pics)
#edrtwt #moothunt

[☆ezra☆ @ezraxhell]

I got my apartment.
first time moving out.
gotta say I'm nervous

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the only reason I'm not built like a Minecraft skeleton is my alcohol consumption

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just don't be a glutton.

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@lucidparasite_ yoyo

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I'm back on #edtwt #edtw

I did recover(from a weird mix of bulimia, ana and alcoholism) to safe my life.

back at it tho. let's see how far we can take it this time.
#bodycheck

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it will bloat you up for like 3 hours. so I eat at 4am or 9pm.
once it's digested you will have no weight gain (as long as you get you're fucking steps in I think).

also you NEED to keep your stomach working by having it digest real food. otherwise you're fucked.

[☆ezra☆ @ezraxhell]

you all really don't know how to eat.

protein, fats and carbs.
this makes me feel stuffed for one and sometimes two days.
heavy meal (600~700cals)..
but I have to force myself to get this all down instead of eating yogurt, salad or protein bars, just to still be hungry.

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most important thing: it tastes amazing while also keeping you functional

[☆ezra☆ @ezraxhell]

pain and heartbreak are worlds apart

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I am moving out this week if I get the apartment.
dude I'll downgrade from big house to basically a dorm room.
my kitchen is in my bedroom then hahah

[QÜTZI @laislabonita345]

The teenage years i was promised never came...

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never not hiking after purging 9 times a day and not having a normal meal for 2 months.

idk why I was so active during my peak ED time.

I ran on alcohol that got purged. for months.
why does my body still work?
how to did I do a 4hour hike (climbing included).

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@abovethatdamnit I relate to this way too hard

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I want to live my life but I can't stop drowning in pain and suffering that has become a part of me.

[cat ᨳଓ ՟ (-5.3/25) @c4temine]

how the entire of september has felt

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my friends art exhibition was a 10/10.

(organized and pulled it off with his brother. one writes books, one paints).

they had book readings, a piano performance, amazing singing, art plastand all around, an amazing audience (half people aged 40+, half alternative young adults)

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a friend is having an art exhibition today. I'll show up nauseous and hungover yeh

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I'm nauseous