intro edrtwt
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Ezra (21)
relapsing
167cm
lw: 45kg🥀
likes: goth club, concerts, my buff boyfriend, cooking, wine, nature
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"what are you so afraid of loosing when nothing in this world belongs to you"
(my own pics)
#edrtwt#moothunt
I'm back on #edtwt#edtw
I did recover(from a weird mix of bulimia, ana and alcoholism) to safe my life.
back at it tho. let's see how far we can take it this time.
#bodycheck
it will bloat you up for like 3 hours. so I eat at 4am or 9pm.
once it's digested you will have no weight gain (as long as you get you're fucking steps in I think).
also you NEED to keep your stomach working by having it digest real food. otherwise you're fucked.
you all really don't know how to eat.
protein, fats and carbs.
this makes me feel stuffed for one and sometimes two days.
heavy meal (600~700cals)..
but I have to force myself to get this all down instead of eating yogurt, salad or protein bars, just to still be hungry.
never not hiking after purging 9 times a day and not having a normal meal for 2 months.
idk why I was so active during my peak ED time.
I ran on alcohol that got purged. for months.
why does my body still work?
how to did I do a 4hour hike (climbing included).
my friends art exhibition was a 10/10.
(organized and pulled it off with his brother. one writes books, one paints).
they had book readings, a piano performance, amazing singing, art plastand all around, an amazing audience (half people aged 40+, half alternative young adults)