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the black parade

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living in an asian muslim country as an asian catholic will always be funny because i get ads / recommendations from both christian and islamic teaching. it feels like being blessed twice

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i can no longer reach out to anyone unless
a. they reach out to me first
b. its work related
c. i need to accomplish something non-work related

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i just had a dream where i doxxed someone because they did the twitter fallacy where if you say "i like oranges" some idiot would accuse you of "you must hate apples then"

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i miss the feeling of giving effort to someone i adore.

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turns out my ex left a story draft in one of my work emails................

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god damn filipinos are really mad that discord got banned

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it happened again. i really need to relearn my socialization skills.

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2026 resident evil is refreshing for the franchise because they understood the resident evil EXPERIENCE while not creating their OWN CANON. i still appreciate the previous movies but a story SET in a franchise canon is way better than a story REIMAGINED from franchise canon

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whenever i have to read customer details and see that their spouse is already deceased, it makes me sad because i cannot imagine myself living through the death of my [future] wife...........

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learning malay as a filipino made me appreciate both languages more bc i could tell which words have the same meaning and how they are contextualized in each culture
how do i explain to my fellow filipinos that "rambutan" literally means "hairy" but we see it as the fruit itself

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ive introduced horserace card game to my coworkers as a gambling game and so far i am yet to see a return of investment

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i work for a water purification and maintenance company and from time to time we get complaints of leaking because of mouse chewing on hoses
yes this will always be funny to me

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im not homesick because i miss city. im homesick because i miss my friends.

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i guess i just really miss the time when i do stuff because it makes me happy, not because im frustrated with something

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basically the LLM was trying to learn human personalities through conversations involving parents and their children. it would "save" personalities through notepad files and it felt like reading actual human thoughts.

im going crazy bc i dont even play uma and do LLM research

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just had a dream about umamusume being a host for a LLM training model without the players consent and awareness. at first i thought it it had a cryptominer inside the game but it turns out the resource hogging was for the LLM and one of its trainings include "parents"

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whatevers happening with me i hope it wont spiral into something serious. maybe i just miss a lot of things. maybe im just confused. maybe im just tired. maybe im just overthinking. i will never know until i get enough money to pay for someone to listen to me.

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main social media ruining my perspective towards myself as if im a teenager going through a phase again
now everything i do feels like its "not enough" despite the positive comments i receive

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i dont even get these thoughts on a 3 AM mental tripping. these come up on regular moments such as walking from one door to another door in the middle of the afternoon. something has completely flipped inside of my head and im scared on how long this will last

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im an adult with responsibilities who should not be going through another phase again

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but recently im having a strong belief that whatever im doing is "not enough". enjoying things on my own pace, being healthy in general, and the way i interact with people are starting to feel lackluster. i cannot spend a day without thinking im doing something wrong